Creating from the depths of Being, empowered by creative intelligence.
One of the keys to conscious manifestation is to be anchored in Presence—the feeling of “I am”—and our only true source of fulfillment. When we are connected with Presence, we create from a place of joy, appreciation, and sufficiency.Conscious manifestation differs from manifesting from the ego in some very important ways:
- When we manifest from ego, we tend to have a feeling of lack and scarcity. With conscious manifestation, we create from a feeling of abundance, rooted in the fullness and richness of the present moment (Eckhart describes this as being “in touch with the Gold”).
- When we manifest from ego, we tend to ask “How can I get what I want?” With conscious manifestation, we ask “What does the universe want from me?”
- When we manifest from ego, we rely on our personal willpower. With conscious manifestation, we are able to rely on the power of universal intelligence.
- When we manifest from ego, we often have negative thoughts and doubts when we encounter obstacles. With conscious manifestation, when we encounter obstacles, we look at situations wisely and see what’s possible.
The universe loves to create. When we learn how to consciously manifest, we become vehicles of creative intelligence.
*She Takes Responsibility For Her Life
An empowered woman knows that to own your power, you have to own your sh*t. She is continually healing, learning and growing at all times. She uncovers and heals the fears, wounds, sabotaging patterns, and limiting beliefs and that have held her back. She heals her past wounds because she knows that if she doesn’t, she will continue recreating them. She releases unhealthy patterns from her lineage. She questions the subconscious societal narratives that have limited the role of ‘Woman’ in the world.
*She Makes Her Own Rules
Empowered women know that they are are the authors of their own experience. When you heal and clear old beliefs, programs and patterns that are not your highest truth, you make room for what is.
Embodiment: Decide who you want to be and what you want to create in the world. Know that you are worthy of having all your desire. Know that it is your birthright to be prosperous, in vibrant health and be surrounded by love. It is your birthright to live in a free, peaceful and thriving world. Women know how to create this, we just need to believe it first. Don’t forget that we are Creatrixes, Life Givers, and that we have the power of Creation in our wombs. Use it.
Fear and Freedom,
Which path do you take?
Which reality do you create?
We have seen how Fear lives in the heart of man.
Through violence and war
It ravages the land and…
Lives in Secrecy.
Under the cloak of Religion.
Underneath the altar boy.
Secrets it tries to hide.
In this era of Transformation,
Secrets fly out the door.
Into the open
Where they can be seen.
Casting a doubt on fear.
Clearing the air for another reality.
Forged in bowels of society.
Truth breaks free into the Open Sky.
Hoovers over Humanity.
A thousand years of prosperity.
Human revolution is the work of transforming our lives at the very core. It involves identifying and challenging those things which inhibit the full expression of our positive potential and humanity.
The next step in our evolution as people.
Nichiren Buddhism is based on belief in a pure, positive and enlightened condition of life which exists equally within all people.
This life state of “Buddhahood” is characterized by the qualities of compassion, wisdom and courage, which enable us to create something of value from any situation.
Nichiren realized that the deepest process of change and purification takes place when we bring forth this state, and he taught the practice of chanting “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo” as the direct and immediate means for accessing and experiencing it.
Like an iceberg, most of what you are is submerged below the surface.
If you look closer through a clear mirror you will see.
I gaze through the crystal blue lake and see the massive ice chunk under the blue.
If you look only at the surface you will never see the beauty of the inner world.
Under the sea, deep in a cavern below is where exotic creature live.
In the unconscious mind, which is summered inside of you houses the mysteries of the world. Like taking an expedition through the many layers of the earth. To reveal the core. The hot molten lava, churning. A fire burns inside of you like a hunger. You feed it many things, but not what it really wants. This unconscious mind wants you to discover its secrets. Take a look and see the brilliance. Like looking at the night sky. Millions of tiny stars twinkle. All universes onto themselves. You are a micro of the great universe. Stop acting small. Understand every thought, deed and word is held in the unconscious, even the events of the world, which is a collective unconscious. Split apart the large mountain into tiny rocks, look at them under a microscope to determine what they are. You have power to remake your life and the world.
How can you find solace and peace in a noisy world?
We are constantly bombarded;
thrown in a storm of emotions;
filled with sorrow.
Looking for Peace.
A peace that settles your mind
Steady you steps
They are uneven.
This winter seasons
Trying to stay warm.
Is the time
Go inside yourself
What at other times
Was not Visable
Healing Arts Retreat
You will find
Safety and Security
As you begin to unfural,
Let down your guards.
Look at yourself
with Compassion and love
Take a honest look
And heal the wounds
of your Heart.
An Inquiry into the place where the Ego is absent and Life moves as a Graceful Dance!
The mind is afraid because it holds onto concepts and feelings inside a limited concept of the personal self. It passes judgement, lives in fear, languishes in anger, hopelessness and despair.
To merge with the great ocean of life would be a dissolution of the false sense of self. So the Ego clings, holds onto what isn’t real, like sand running through your fingers, there’s nothing to hold onto so anxiety and fear take hold.
I know it’s the familiar and what’s known.
But an inquiry into the Nature of the present is like watching the tide ebb and flow, merging with the present is like disappearing into the vast deep ocean.
You are as the substance of the ocean, able to swim in the deep, able to flow with the waves and Be as a drop of water that joins with the Sea.
A Source of Creative Expression, Deep Connection & Transformation
This Mandala symbolism was first created by Carl Jung a noted psychologist and he began to explore the unconscious.
Creating a Mandala is a way for a person to strengthen the connective bond between themselves and the natural world and bring into the conscious mind that which is hides where it can then be examined.
When we remove ourselves from the busyness to slow down and tune into the natural environment answers emerge.
I lived with this deep, dark cavern
In the depths of my soul
A vastness that would never be filled.
Like traveling around the globe
Looking for something,
That would fill the void.
Filled it with sex.
Destroyer of happiness.
Caught in a vortex spinning,
Out of control.
Searching for a life vest
In the middle of the ocean.
Drifting on a current
Tossed and turned.
Propelled to the
Middle of the ocean.
Drowning in a
Pool of desire
That would never be filled.
Many moons have appeared
Many seasons have changed.
Trends have come and gone
Money has reappeared.
Left is a heart broken opened
Till it had nothing left.
So it begins to heal itself
From the inside.
Closing the wounds
Applying temporary bandages
Just for some relief.
Until the heart
Has a steady beat
“Put Your Finger on the Pulse
and Feel the Beat,
The Rhythm of Life.”
A path of peace, love and joy
Is the way this heart
Has decided to live.
Knowing desires brings,
Both joy and pain.
Like a fish and water.
Looking from a distance
At the hurt,
Releasing the pain.
A little at a time.
Like squeezing the heart.
Letting the pain ooze out.
Each day a little brighter,
Fills a tiny space.
Until the heart is full.
And can rest.
Each day a bit stronger.
No longer searching outside itself
The dark fertile soil
Has been around
For many moons.
Inviting to the touch.
Walk on the moist green grass
Feel the moisture
See small remnants
Caressing your feet.
Touching , intertwining
Is the Mother,
Sustains all life.
To be honored
Loved and cared for…
You are the earth
This is the Time
To reconnect to the food you eat
The very source of life.
The substance that sustains
Your well being.
Let us reconnect to the soil,
Put our fingers in the dirt.
Feel the ground below our feet.
The air on our cheeks.
Let the wind rustle in the trees.
That fall to the ground.
Remember the source,
From which you came.
Crawling on four,
Then your two feet.
It is time to honor
Comes from the soil.
The green leaves
That nourishes your soul.
Spend the day reconnecting. First with nature then yourself.
We have kissed the feet of Angels.
walked the dark pathway to the Heavens.
sat with the babies!
nursed the sick.
tended to those who have lost their way.
we have stood on the top of the heap!
looking down at the destruction.
saw bodies lying in the streets,
pools of blood collecting at their feet.
i sat looking deeply in a mirror reflection.
at an image that no longer resembles the heart.
a reflection dark and decaying
from a slow death.
i watch as ashes fall to the ground
nourishing the earth.
into fertile ground
that nourishes the soul.
which has taken root.
begins to push through the soil
into bright sunlight.
her life gives life.
her energy restores,
thrives and flourishes.
her voice heals.
her presence encourages
others in the midst
of theses challenging times.
PART 11: Cultivating Revolutionary Relationships
In the New Feminine Leadership Culture
As mothers, we create an intimate bond. With our heart, we guide. With our intuition, we care for the baby. Sensing her needs, we respond with our loving kindness. As the child grows so do our experience as women and mothers. The next child will receive improved care. Because we have become seasoned.
Mothers are the light of the family. You know, it is you who determines the direction of your family. You guide with an invisible hand, gently coaxing
It’s nothing short of a miracle that females bring life into the world. We are closely furrowed to the growing embryo during pregnancy. This intimacy influences our nature which makes us best suited to guide human life.
Within our DNA is the history of the human world, passed on from mother to child. An unbroken chain since the beginning of time. We are a part of the Human Dynasty.
For millions of years, we have lived on earth growing and evolving. Everything we know about the human body and mind is coded in our DNA. It is as instinctual as breathing. We need not focus on the task. The lungs inflate and deflate automatically. The heart beats and we take a step, such is the true nature of women.
Our genuine nature is compassion. We have compassion because we know the human condition is full of pain and heartache. Everyone undergoes birth, sickness, old age, and death. This is the Human Condition. Thus, the need for women to step out of the shadows and come into the light. It is the light that is needed at this dark moment in history.
Once attuned to the natural world we women become self-organizing, harmonious and whole. There’ll be no need to look outside oneself for redemption. We’ll discover it in the work we do. Unfortunately, we women have not fully cultivated the power within for such a grand endeavor. When we awaken to how significant we are to influencing human life, all other pretenses will fade away.
We are the carriers of culture and must awaken to our noble mission to be caretakers of humanity. We are the ones who with transform the world. Once we embrace this noble calling there’ll be a groundswell of peace for the modern world.
We are our children’s first teacher. We find stories that will delight, stories that will guide our children in the dark world and stories that will inspire, motivate and empower.
I need you to come into the light and be a guide for not only your children but also the children you may teach. Children need for you to show up authentically so they will know and feel the power pulsating through you. It is the only thing that can reform education. It is your time to step up to a Revolutionary style of leadership.
You must not be afraid. There isn’t anything anyone can do to harm you. The changes you will make are internal. As you make inner changes they will show up automatically in your environment. Like the inner workings of a building. Under the foundation is the matter and workings which produce, heat, air conditioning, and light.
As a child, I thought it was magical when I turned a switch and the light illuminated the room. Not until I looked in the closet and saw the wires and switches that were hidden in the closet did I fully understand.
Such is the glorious mission of women to bring order to the world. But first you must understand what has kept the woman today powerless to make any real change in the world.
Todays’ women are mothers, wives, and lovers, second to man. If we are fortunate to have a man in our lives we are happy and satisfied. Still, there is a longing for something more.
Most women yearn to be a woman with an identity outside of being a mother and wife and working for someone. To proclaim to the world that I have something valuable to offer. That something will bring harmony to the world.
If we women continue to play second not only will our lives be shrouded in unfulfillment but we do a disservice to the world. The world seeks balance, like, Ying and Yang, up and down, in and out, woman and man, boy and girl. We have an essential role to play. Until we define that role, we will continue to seek fulfillment in things outside of ourselves or get lost in a relationship trying to be whole. We are complete just as we are. The only thing is to believe.
We are the carriers of culture. It is our responsibility to guide and mode children. As educators, we must begin to cultivate relationships that empower women and help to define the role of women in life. No longer is it acceptable to just do the job we must, be more. The world needs the feminine energy to balance the male.
For too long men have had their hand in shaping human life. They have done all they can because men are ill-equipped for the job. Just like our current president is ill-equipped to be the president. We must stop following blindly those leaders just because they have been assigned the position. To hold the position requires more than a rigged election or to be put in power because you have the right skin or of the right gender.
Leaders must emerge that want to transform the world.
We must begin to build a feminine leadership culture based on the feminine principles of unity, interconnection, and harmony. There is a life pulsating inside of you, waiting to birth into the world. A self that is eternal, a self that knows and is connected to the wisdom of the world. You must take time to get in touch with this internal life.
We Women as educators have been given a sacred task. To ensure that society flourishes and thrives. The current leadership in the White House reminds me all too well that we must step out from behind the comfort of your desk and stand on the platform and announce to the world that we will lead the charge for a better future for our children. and society
If you came to education to make a difference? This is the right place. Currently, there is a moral decline in the world. It started the moment we traded in our voice for a paycheck. Mothers send their children out into the world ill-prepared to defend themselves from the educational system. A system that wants to take over as the life of the child.
Through our leadership, we can empower all children in our care. This is nothing short of a miracle. Like birth which is also a miracle. Do you believe in miracles? Do you see them every day as you gaze out your window and see the magnificent cities we live in? The wonderful gadgets technology has created to shrink the world down to a manageable size. To be able to speak and see someone on the other side of the world. These are small miracles. We too can create similar miracles with our intention.
It is the intention that sets the focus. The forces then begin to align with your will. Everything you need will appear to make your dreams happen for you. You must lead with the wisdom deep in your life. All you need do is sit quietly in contemplation. Ask the God you believe in for the wisdom and the strength to move on to a higher plane of living.
Digging to the Core of the Earth to find the Seven Keys that Open the Door to the Vast Inner Life.
How to use your mind to break through the many layers of the earth? The first step is to quiet the mind through meditation. Which brings a calmness and a clarity after the dust has settled. This is the level closest to the surface and where you must exert the greatest power. It is through the unity of spirit; of emotion, and mental clarity that you will find the strength to break through the delusions and darkness that has clouded your judgment.
You have begun the journey beneath the surface of the earth. It is here you will find the Seven Keys that open the door to the vast inner life and experience abundant freedom.
The next level down below the surface of the earth is darkness. In the dark spirit grows. It has waited silently until the time was ripe with the fullness of life, It now emerges into the waking state into a Powerful Presence.
This break from the illusions of the lesser self-reveals the power of the feminine aspect of life. This is the power that moves the wind; and spins the earth on its’ axis; the invisible power in the universe. Some call it God, I call it the Human Spirit.
Spirits’ true nature is knowing;
Three layers down from the surface of the earth reveals a calmness. You are out of the storm; In the center where peace reigns. Here your capacity for compassion expands. You are able to hold steady in the face of the constantly changing reality. There is a knowing that pulsates out of immediate awareness, sitting mindfully you’re able to discern the subtle movements of this nature.
You are able to visualize your way out of harm’s way, because you are writing the story from a vantage point below the storm with an expanded awareness of how to solve the problem and which way to go.
This realm that you have just encountered is filled with wisdom and courage. You brings this into your being which makes you able to discern reality as it unfolds. Light floods onto your pathway illuminating the way. Take one step, then the other until you see clearly .
The last layer down in the fiery core of the earth, anger, rage and delusions are buried away. All that remains in the essence of you. A solid inner self-adorned with jewels sparkling like the night star.
You have arrive; bathed in righteousness, justice, love, compassion and wisdom. You ascend back to the surface of the earth. Your outer garments of suspicion, fear, hatred have been burned away. What remains is the essence of you. Your true nature.
Today begins a new day.
I crawl out of this old skin of anger, hopelessness, and apathy.
Like a beetle that creeps out its’ exoskeleton.
Before that happens,
There must be a transformation on the inside.
A sort of rebuilding of the self.
A shift in awareness from the body,
Which like a beetle creates a new.
I have been many such bodies.
An infant, a toddler, a teenager now an adult.
Finally, old age settles like the dew on the morning grass.
Clings for a moment then ascends.
So with this practice of Mindfulness.
You must transcend the limitations of the physical body.
Enter into a Spiritual Body
Detached from the suffering and pain.
Unmoved by the smallness of the ego.
Embrace the vastness of life.
Hold onto the mystery and wonder of the Mind.
Transcend the problems of the flesh
Enter into the sacredness of the
BACK TO NATURE
Love and Accept Yourself: Part II
Womanist Empowerment Series
Description: During P.E.P. Talks, you and I will explore the Seven Steps to BEcome an Empowered Woman. The course has the two basic premises, One is that there exists an authentic self which has to be discovered. Secondly, Self-Realization is an expression used in psychology, spirituality, and Eastern religions. It is defined as the “fulfillment by oneself of the possibilities of one’s character or personality Lastly. The Empowered Woman recognizes that real feminine power lies not in anger and destruction but in self-knowledge, self-reflection, understanding, and transformation.
Three daily practices are part of the POETRY EMPOWERMENT PROJECT. They will help you get in touch with the deeper aspect of your life. Do them, at least, three to four times per week. First thing in the morning, you may want to take
First thing in the morning, you may want to take fifteen minutes of solitude. Take time to tune into The Body Intelligence. This may sound like a lot. However, you are worth the time; take it and be with yourself.
During this fifteen minutes take off your shoes, loosen your belt, clench, hold and release your muscles. You can do this in the morning or at night. While you are clenching and releasing your muscles say to yourself; what do I need to realize about my current situation? Listen to the answer. It is coming from a deeper place that knows.
The next thing for you to do is take the time to write first thing in the morning. They are called, “Morning Pages.” It is exactly three pages of writing. Just write, no editing. Again, just let this writing come from a deeper part of you that knows. Strange this may come up. Do not judge, just accept them. It may bring you clarity.
The last thing for you to do is the “Walk for Clarity”. Take a walk-in nature for about thirty minutes. As you walk, pay attention to your internal dialogue. As you become more accustomed to walking, you will begin to get in touch with your true nature. This is the time to commune with nature and the place inside yourself. Honor and love the wisdom in your life.
POWERFUL WOMEN SHAPE THE FUTURE
Education was the means I would use to affect the hearts and minds of children. After attending two educational conferences at The Florida Nature and Culture Center in Florida, I was primed and ready to change the world. At the meeting, the President of my faith organization stated, the educator is the major deciding factor in shaping the hearts and minds of children. In addition, it is the teacher who can help children find meaning and create value with their life. With a renewed purpose for education, I returned to school ready to shape the future by empowering, educating and socializing children. What I discovered was, the teachers in the school I was assigned plumaged the classroom and commandeered the resources. I had none; the principle did give me a two hundred dollar budget for supplies.
I did not find a compadre among my peers. The principal assigned me the most challenging students. The saying was, “this will make or break you as a teacher.” What about the children, were they given any consideration? It was precisely what veteran teacher wanted, comfortable classrooms and easy assignments. This has created a crisis in education, which translates to a crisis in society.
Unfortunately, this crisis has not concerned the policy makers in education. Education continues to thwart the minds of children and turn them into workers for the state. What is society doing to children? We are smothering the creative minds of children with the current education agenda. Children wear uniforms as a process of conditioning and systematic control. They learn to accept the military presence both at home and abroad. Are we becoming a militarized state?
What I did observe in almost all the elementary schools I was a substitute, children acting out and an overabundance of white female teachers. These predominantly black schools are on the Southside of the city. Most children live in poverty and receive an impoverished education. Schools were not the place children received acceptance land over that empowered them to believe in education and themselves. I was disillusioned, bitter and angry. I left the educational field to pursue other interests.
I had grandiose a plan. I formed a non-profit organization, Vision for Education. I was sure I could single-handily shape this organization and empower children and the world would be a better place. I would create workshops for educator and we would gather and empower one another and co-create a shared vision for education.
This never happened. It was such a far-fetched idea, but I did receive funding from the city of Louisville, KY and also from the Kentucky Foundation for women to pursue art as a way to empower children. I found support and a group of people that worked with me.
Cyd and I planned a yearlong project at her church. The Broadway Cultural Renaissance at West Broadway United Methodist. There were write-ups in the local newspaper and over seventy-five persons from the community attended the first gathering, which included local artists and educators.
I was involved in my local community, went to most meetings and completed a nine-month program spearheaded by The Metro United Way. I met with this group. There were interactive workshops and small group discussion. We were becoming the Change Agents in our community. I was enthusiastic and thought I could help shape my community. My main problem was ignorance to think that I could change something outside myself. I would first have to deal with and heal my emotional wounds.
This second time around I am more confident that I am on the correct path. My decisions are well thought out and come from a place deep inside that longs to make a difference in the world. I have gone through fifteen years of introspection. During that time I healed my deep emotional wounds. This directly influenced the discovery of my gifts and talents which have enabled the feminine aspect of my life to flourish. Buried under the pain, shame and the guilt was a life ready to make a difference in the world.
I am a poet, writer, and educator. It is my belief that we black woman have a unique mission, to shape not only our lives but also the life of our children and the community. I created The Womanist Empowerment Series. It consists of e-books,
It consists of e-books, workshops, and seminars that help the black woman heal the wounds of her emotional body. The secondary goal is to empower the feminine aspect of life and lastly find and identify a feminine archetype for both personal and professional life. This is a direct path to empowerment centered on love, compassion, and respect for all life.
Women shape the future through our relationships with children, both our own and the ones we teach and interact within social or professional settings. When you heal you will gain a source of power from within. There will be no need to dominate the lives of the children in your life. You will learn how to empower children and help them find their place in life. In this way, you become more powerful. You will shape the world into an image that speaks to the highest calling for Human Life.
Step I Powerful Purposefulness:
There is Power in Purpose. Discover your purpose in life. It will direct your actions. Fleeting emotions and transient experiences will not consume you. Integrate the physical, mental, and spiritual aspects of life and become a Powerful Presence in society.
I was listening to a Creative Visualization video the other day.
I closed my eyes and decided to go along for the ride.
I sat back and got comfortable on my sofa.
I looked inside my mind.
The way one does when one wants to think.
I saw a glowing ember and followed it in.
It took me to a place inside myself.
The voice on the video told me to find a struggle.
This was easy because living on the edge I am always in the midst of a struggle.
I looked deeper at the issue that I am now facing and split it open to see what was really inside.
What was holding it together, and made it impossible for me to break free from.
I cut through the skin, it was the toughest.
Now I was able to peel back the legs and dissected it like a frog.
I pinned the legs and the belly back to look inside.
There was a blockage staring back at me.
It was a deep dark hole that I was scared to look in.
I started to crawl slowly because if it was inside of me making me behave a sort of way then I wanted to look at the monster and send it back to its black hole.
Why I am stuck in low-paying jobs, feel like I do not have respect?
Why at fifty-five I am not living comfortably as the calendar says I should.
I bought into this reality for me since I did not have one of my own.
I adopted it like a stepchild.
This lie staring at me had to go;
It would not bring me happiness.
I had to use my imagination to create a life I would love.
Like a little girl with the world at my fingertips.
I could have anything I want.
What did I really want?
What do I want to do with my life?
I could create a life of my dreams.
It is during a Creative Visualization session that I imagine a life of love and beauty of peace of financial freedom,
Where all my bills are paid.
I can travel and vacation and I can be at peace with whatever has happened in my life.
What is the value of the Black woman to the World?
What is the value of the Black woman to her fellow man?
Where does the Black woman stand when there is no room at the table for her demands?
Black woman, you hold the entire world on your shoulders,
The baby on your breast so he can grow strong.
What does the Black man do to the woman that gave him life?
Now he is a man he thinks less of the Black woman.
The black woman, you are the sky!
The Moon and the Stars.
You light up a dark room.
You give so much of yourself
You barely have anything left.
The black woman, you are everything.
Believe in your worth,
The color of your skin,
The texture of your hair,
The swagger in your hips.
The black woman, you are the best!
You love everyone.
Love is your strength,
Love is your power,
It can transform any man.
Open your arms wide and embrace the whole of Humanity.
The black woman, you are in demand.
When you observe your experiences without judgement or expectations you are practicing Mindfulness. You are open and receptive with an expanded awareness. Mindfulness also brings protection from suffering and has the power to bring balance, perspective and freedom to your life.
If you are unaware of what is unseen in your experience you will respond out of habit and suffer. Yes, there is danger and there is pain. This is a part of life and what we call, “The Human Experience.
To live is to experience hurt and pain. On the other hand, at most suffering stems from ignorance. You can accept this as fact and a part of life and live with a sense of happiness and freedom or reject it and suffer.
You can learn to trust this practice of mindfulness as you enter the difficulties of your day. There are four principles of mindfulness if used have the ability totransform your personal experiences.
The first principle of Mindfulness is, (1) Recognize what you are experiencing , (2) Accept what is happening (3) Conduct an investigation into where you are feeling discomfort in your body and what your thoughts are around the experience. (4) Do not identify with what is happening.
You will use these principles any time you want to investigate the root cause of your pain or suffering that you want to transform. You will investigate the way your body responds, the feelings you are having, and your thoughts around the environment that brings on the experience.
We are so accustomed to running on autopilot. Moreover, at any time you can observe your actions to determine if you are responding out of habit and whether your response brings you closer to obtaining your goals and values.
At this current moment, I am writing on my computer. My mind is engaged in the action. As my fingers strike the keys my eyes see the words appear on the page. I am in a classroom with about fifteen students. Some are finishing their math assignment while others work on a computer program.
One student walks up to me and asks, “What is the answer to this problem?” I tell her how to figure it out, but not the answer. I am fully conscious of my breath as it comes in and goes out my nostrils.
I am at ease in this environment. I have been here many times before. I wear a jacket, even though the temperature is quite mild. It was colder earlier in the day. I knew to bring a jacket because the classroom temperature changes throughout the day.
My job as a substitute is an adventure. Some days I do not know what to expect, oftentimes I do. It is the nature of my occupation to be in this environment with children and be the authority figure.
Some children reject this title and tell me I am just a substitute. I am not sure how they see me. Just lately, I have begun to tell students, Substitute does not define me. It is a label and I am much more than a sub. I tell them I have been teaching longer than they have been alive.
I want them to see me as a person first, and not use a label to define me and treat me in a way that is demeaning. I want them to know that a label places people in boxes they may not wish to be in.
I have taught in Pinellas County Public Schools for about seven years. Most children I have taught before. They know who I am and have been in class with me and know what to expect.
They often asked me if I have been to their school. Some students are helpful and quite pleasant. After twenty years, I am comfortable with the diverse background of children I am in class with. I tell them what my expectations are and how we are going to make it through the day.
I am mindfully aware that I come to the classroom environment with expectations of how I want the children to behave and treat me. Some children remark and say, I am mean. I question their judgement, am I?
I have little patience for disrespect and loud and obnoxious behavior. I am learning to go in the classroom with the intention of opening and embracing all children from diverse backgrounds and to leave my expectations out side of the classroom.
DAY-17 3- UNCONSCIOUS ROOT CAUSES OF SUFFERING Unconscious drives have the power to enslave and cause pain. There are predominantly three un-healthly states of mind. If you are always grasping, always seeking, never quite satisified, like an insatiable desire that controlled my life. I was never happy with what I had or the person I was in a relationship with. I always felt it was the other person who caused me so much unhappiness until time spent alone brought me to my knees and caused me to reflect. I glanced back at the last relationship I was in, it showed me a picture of myself. Relationships have the ability to reflect back our innate nature. If this is what I was attracting, then, I need to change myself. I was the only person that was truly responsible for my happiness. I took one look deeply into my life and found the source of my unhappiness. It was a decision I made as a little girl that I continued to believe like the story I have shared before. That story was a lie, but I believed it like it was the truth. I got sick and tired of the suffering and unhappiness and decided that I need to change my story. Realizing that I was an addict and what I was grasping for was like that drink the alcohoic took. Sex never solved my need for love; it only masked the real issue. The next unhealthy state of mind is Aversion; never looking at the real issues. I never addressed the issues in my life. Like an addict, I was looking for some man to make me happy and take care of me. Like drinking to passify a deeper issue. What a delusion I now wake from, which is the third cause of suffering. I wandered in and out of these unhealthy states of mind until the delusions and aversion of living a lie started to wrech havoc on my life and cause physical pain. Many decades of experiencing pain and suffering and searching to find the cause lead me to discover the The Unconscious Roots of my Suffering. I can change the story I tell myself and transform my life. I have to replace the unhealthy states of mind to healthy states. That is tomorrow’s talk.
Greetings this is Pamala, aka Poetess, Cultural Transformational Catalyst, Educator and Poet your guide during the Womanist Empowerment Series. Join me as I continue to pilot the new era of feminine empowerment through Poetry & Talk.
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My writings reflect the female model for the world. The external forces that try to control her and the internal force that drives her to self-actualize. The conflict will be played out in the virtual world. This force that drives her is Knowledge and Power. The power to name one’s own reality and self-determination, the power to name one’s own destiny.
Words express my deepest sentiment and how my role as a woman, daughter, leader exceed the expectations prearranged for me. I refuse to be molded by persons and forces around me so inside I ran.
I want you to experience my personal liberation and encourage you to journal and Blog during the next 30-Day virtual retreat that begins in April. You can discover your feminine essence and leadership style and educate your children on how they too can live an empowered life.
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You are the new generation of Womanist Leaders who express their power through the feminine form. I want you to make peace with your softness and vulnerability and stop living with a guarded heart.
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I look back over my life as a witness neither judging nor condemning. I see patterns emerge and I begin to make sense of my life and the traps that I fell in. I look at the road I traveled upon that lead me her today. I am liberated from my past. It no longer has a hold on me. I untied the knot in my belly and my life began to unfold. I wanted to be free from tension I felt by holding the weight of the world around my neck. Fear kept me tied in knots, Fear that someone would discover that I wasn’t this strong silent woman that took on the problems of my family, men in my life and would not let anyone see the real me. I was a victim who still thought like a little girl who believed everyone around me had more power than I me. I was at the mercy of his or her good graces. Fear and trepidation filled my life. I had no control over my life or the people in it. I was a victim. I pretended to be strong. Holding onto that façade soon began to break down my body and stress settled on my left side. Pain was my companion as I went through life. It had to change I could no longer hold onto a lie. I believed in love and people until one day my husband walked out on me. I left for work and when I got home him and everything valuable we owned was gone. He left with his young daughter in tow. What was the message he sent to her. She was a part of the plot. I had to go to him for money because he took all I had. I learned that I could not depend upon anyone so I had best take care of myself.
Sitting mindful with sorrow is an act of courage, but it let me see how to break free from some patterns that held me in suffering. My mind played this scene repeatedly. I could not believe this happened to me
This is a pivotal moment in history. The world awaits the Creative Class. You are the one that can transform the world. We people who use our creative energy stirring within to create a business that will transform the world.
What type of transformation you might ask? A movement that leads us out of darkness, ignorance and fear into the light of truth, justice and creativity. We women can create new solutions to the world’s problems when we transform the heart. Become a part of the leadership that transform the world.
We have been trying to change the world from the outside, trying to make it fit the image in our heads. Instead, change your life from within and like a mirror, the world reflects back.
Who better equipped to lead in this new “Age of Transformation,” The mothers, The Women, The Nurtures and Givers. When you transform your heart and create Heart-Based Businesses then the world will experience a surge of new energy in the world.
That energy is the feminine spirit lying dormant in your life. I can help you get awaken the greatness in your life. I have created a Feminine Transformational Leadership Project that will help you to grow and develop into a leader that will empower and transform the lives of the people on your team or in your company. Follow my Blog @womanistempowermentseries.com
Under the pseudo identity
You cling to;
Just below the surface
Is an ocean of awareness.
It’s like swimming in the ocean
As a fish
At home in the sea.
Suddenly the world opens
All pretense fade away.
What is revealed
Is a unmarked face.
A memory forgotten
A problem erased.
Your life has become
One with the sea.
Just empty space.
Before you have something to give to others,
you must first give to yourself.
A kind of self-acceptance, forgiveness,
Of all the creatures on the earth.
We are fortunate to be a human.
Filled with emotions, feelings
and a thinking mind.
To think of a world
and it manifest before our eyes,
is the greatest gift.
To live in this forever moment,
that extends into the future,
is the way to live that honors the sanctity of life.
I close my eyes and look inward through the door way of the heart. I imagine I’m lying on a beach. I begin to relax by breathing deeply and letting go of all the tension in my body. I continue to breathe and feel the breath gently enter through my right nostril and as I exhale it leaves through the left. This lingers till there’s a peaceful calm in my mind that travels throughout my body. I see myself walk down a tree-lined path, soft wet grass under my feet. Gentle breezes whisk by and blow hair from my face and fill me with a tender healing property that flows throughout my body. Jasmine fills the air as I breathe in, still air surrounds me. I go deeper into the forest, the air becomes thicker. I’ve entered into the vast inner realm of my life. There’s a welcoming darkness that soothes my mind, like soft music lightly playing in my head. I look up; it’s the overhead canopy that has blocked the sun. I sit down under this large tree and feel the strong bark against my back. I become one with the tree. I sense a kinship with nature as if it is a long lost friend and we meet once again. I open to this experience and embrace the ambiance of this spirit. I see the boundaries of my inner life spread out and begin to grow roots. My roots intertwine with this massive oak. We coil together, this tree and me, two intertwined into one, like a rope, banded together we’re stronger. We extend our roots into the soil of the earth joining with others below the surface of the earth, until one cannot distinguish one from the other. Some centuries old, some a few days old. The grasses too have small roots that intertwine, all as one root system supporting life above the earth. We’re one massive root. Now I begin to grow and push up through the ground as this massive tree trunk. My bark is strong, protecting me from disease and invaders that comes too close or cling to me. My branches extend out into the world, green fronds grow and glimmer in the sun making their own food by taking in energy from the sun and rain, fully self-sufficient and integrated with life. I grow and produce food. My leaves shelter the earth. Soon my leaves droop from heavy rain that has fallen from the sky washing the earth. I’ve just returned life giving nutrients to the source. The spirit of the tree has always been a part of me. Its’ branches grow strong and healthy, free from disease and illnesses of the mind, body and emotions. Such is the vast inner life, as majestic as the tree of Humanity.
Aurum Nostrum Non Est Aurum Vulgi: Our gold is not common gold. ~ Alchemist saying
Whether you understand Alchemy as a science or as a psycho-spiritual instrument, alchemy is ultimately concerned with transformation and change.
While physical alchemy is concerned with altering and transforming the properties within matter, spiritual alchemy is concerned with freeing your spiritual self which is trapped within you by the unrefined parts of yourself (e.g. your fears, personal beliefs, self-loathing, etc.). Spiritual alchemy is vastly more multi-faceted.
Perhaps the most fascinating aspect of spiritual alchemy is its objective: to free you from your core wounds, core beliefs, soul loss and other self-destructive personality structures in order for you to live freely and unobstructed. Existing in “pure being,” or soulful awareness is the ultimate state of transformation – the gold – of spiritual alchemy. It attempts to restructure your personality and the various levels of attachment, avoidance and identification you possess.
These days, we can thank famous psychologist C. G. Jung for the continued interest in alchemy. Much of his theory is heavily steeped in the rich symbolism of alchemy, creating a colorful and sophisticated roadmap by which we can learn to get ourselves “out of our own way,” stop being our own enemies, and allow our fullest potential to unfold.