Creating from the depths of Being, empowered by creative intelligence.
One of the keys to conscious manifestation is to be anchored in Presence—the feeling of “I am”—and our only true source of fulfillment. When we are connected with Presence, we create from a place of joy, appreciation, and sufficiency.Conscious manifestation differs from manifesting from the ego in some very important ways:
- When we manifest from ego, we tend to have a feeling of lack and scarcity. With conscious manifestation, we create from a feeling of abundance, rooted in the fullness and richness of the present moment (Eckhart describes this as being “in touch with the Gold”).
- When we manifest from ego, we tend to ask “How can I get what I want?” With conscious manifestation, we ask “What does the universe want from me?”
- When we manifest from ego, we rely on our personal willpower. With conscious manifestation, we are able to rely on the power of universal intelligence.
- When we manifest from ego, we often have negative thoughts and doubts when we encounter obstacles. With conscious manifestation, when we encounter obstacles, we look at situations wisely and see what’s possible.
The universe loves to create. When we learn how to consciously manifest, we become vehicles of creative intelligence.
*She Takes Responsibility For Her Life
An empowered woman knows that to own your power, you have to own your sh*t. She is continually healing, learning and growing at all times. She uncovers and heals the fears, wounds, sabotaging patterns, and limiting beliefs and that have held her back. She heals her past wounds because she knows that if she doesn’t, she will continue recreating them. She releases unhealthy patterns from her lineage. She questions the subconscious societal narratives that have limited the role of ‘Woman’ in the world.
*She Makes Her Own Rules
Empowered women know that they are are the authors of their own experience. When you heal and clear old beliefs, programs and patterns that are not your highest truth, you make room for what is.
Embodiment: Decide who you want to be and what you want to create in the world. Know that you are worthy of having all your desire. Know that it is your birthright to be prosperous, in vibrant health and be surrounded by love. It is your birthright to live in a free, peaceful and thriving world. Women know how to create this, we just need to believe it first. Don’t forget that we are Creatrixes, Life Givers, and that we have the power of Creation in our wombs. Use it.
Fear and Freedom,
Which path do you take?
Which reality do you create?
We have seen how Fear lives in the heart of man.
Through violence and war
It ravages the land and…
Lives in Secrecy.
Under the cloak of Religion.
Underneath the altar boy.
Secrets it tries to hide.
In this era of Transformation,
Secrets fly out the door.
Into the open
Where they can be seen.
Casting a doubt on fear.
Clearing the air for another reality.
Forged in bowels of society.
Truth breaks free into the Open Sky.
Hoovers over Humanity.
A thousand years of prosperity.
Human revolution is the work of transforming our lives at the very core. It involves identifying and challenging those things which inhibit the full expression of our positive potential and humanity.
The next step in our evolution as people.
Nichiren Buddhism is based on belief in a pure, positive and enlightened condition of life which exists equally within all people.
This life state of “Buddhahood” is characterized by the qualities of compassion, wisdom and courage, which enable us to create something of value from any situation.
Nichiren realized that the deepest process of change and purification takes place when we bring forth this state, and he taught the practice of chanting “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo” as the direct and immediate means for accessing and experiencing it.
Like an iceberg, most of what you are is submerged below the surface.
If you look closer through a clear mirror you will see.
I gaze through the crystal blue lake and see the massive ice chunk under the blue.
If you look only at the surface you will never see the beauty of the inner world.
Under the sea, deep in a cavern below is where exotic creature live.
In the unconscious mind, which is summered inside of you houses the mysteries of the world. Like taking an expedition through the many layers of the earth. To reveal the core. The hot molten lava, churning. A fire burns inside of you like a hunger. You feed it many things, but not what it really wants. This unconscious mind wants you to discover its secrets. Take a look and see the brilliance. Like looking at the night sky. Millions of tiny stars twinkle. All universes onto themselves. You are a micro of the great universe. Stop acting small. Understand every thought, deed and word is held in the unconscious, even the events of the world, which is a collective unconscious. Split apart the large mountain into tiny rocks, look at them under a microscope to determine what they are. You have power to remake your life and the world.
How can you find solace and peace in a noisy world?
We are constantly bombarded;
thrown in a storm of emotions;
filled with sorrow.
Looking for Peace.
A peace that settles your mind
Steady you steps
They are uneven.
This winter seasons
Trying to stay warm.
Is the time
Go inside yourself
What at other times
Was not Visable
Healing Arts Retreat
You will find
Safety and Security
As you begin to unfural,
Let down your guards.
Look at yourself
with Compassion and love
Take a honest look
And heal the wounds
of your Heart.
An Inquiry into the place where the Ego is absent and Life moves as a Graceful Dance!
The mind is afraid because it holds onto concepts and feelings inside a limited concept of the personal self. It passes judgement, lives in fear, languishes in anger, hopelessness and despair.
To merge with the great ocean of life would be a dissolution of the false sense of self. So the Ego clings, holds onto what isn’t real, like sand running through your fingers, there’s nothing to hold onto so anxiety and fear take hold.
I know it’s the familiar and what’s known.
But an inquiry into the Nature of the present is like watching the tide ebb and flow, merging with the present is like disappearing into the vast deep ocean.
You are as the substance of the ocean, able to swim in the deep, able to flow with the waves and Be as a drop of water that joins with the Sea.
A Source of Creative Expression, Deep Connection & Transformation
This Mandala symbolism was first created by Carl Jung a noted psychologist and he began to explore the unconscious.
Creating a Mandala is a way for a person to strengthen the connective bond between themselves and the natural world and bring into the conscious mind that which is hides where it can then be examined.
When we remove ourselves from the busyness to slow down and tune into the natural environment answers emerge.
I lived with this deep, dark cavern
In the depths of my soul
A vastness that would never be filled.
Like traveling around the globe
Looking for something,
That would fill the void.
Filled it with sex.
Destroyer of happiness.
Caught in a vortex spinning,
Out of control.
Searching for a life vest
In the middle of the ocean.
Drifting on a current
Tossed and turned.
Propelled to the
Middle of the ocean.
Drowning in a
Pool of desire
That would never be filled.
Many moons have appeared
Many seasons have changed.
Trends have come and gone
Money has reappeared.
Left is a heart broken opened
Till it had nothing left.
So it begins to heal itself
From the inside.
Closing the wounds
Applying temporary bandages
Just for some relief.
Until the heart
Has a steady beat
“Put Your Finger on the Pulse
and Feel the Beat,
The Rhythm of Life.”
A path of peace, love and joy
Is the way this heart
Has decided to live.
Knowing desires brings,
Both joy and pain.
Like a fish and water.
Looking from a distance
At the hurt,
Releasing the pain.
A little at a time.
Like squeezing the heart.
Letting the pain ooze out.
Each day a little brighter,
Fills a tiny space.
Until the heart is full.
And can rest.
Each day a bit stronger.
No longer searching outside itself
The dark fertile soil
Has been around
For many moons.
Inviting to the touch.
Walk on the moist green grass
Feel the moisture
See small remnants
Caressing your feet.
Touching , intertwining
Is the Mother,
Sustains all life.
To be honored
Loved and cared for…
You are the earth
This is the Time
To reconnect to the food you eat
The very source of life.
The substance that sustains
Your well being.
Let us reconnect to the soil,
Put our fingers in the dirt.
Feel the ground below our feet.
The air on our cheeks.
Let the wind rustle in the trees.
That fall to the ground.
Remember the source,
From which you came.
Crawling on four,
Then your two feet.
It is time to honor
Comes from the soil.
The green leaves
That nourishes your soul.
Spend the day reconnecting. First with nature then yourself.
We have kissed the feet of Angels.
walked the dark pathway to the Heavens.
sat with the babies!
nursed the sick.
tended to those who have lost their way.
we have stood on the top of the heap!
looking down at the destruction.
saw bodies lying in the streets,
pools of blood collecting at their feet.
i sat looking deeply in a mirror reflection.
at an image that no longer resembles the heart.
a reflection dark and decaying
from a slow death.
i watch as ashes fall to the ground
nourishing the earth.
into fertile ground
that nourishes the soul.
which has taken root.
begins to push through the soil
into bright sunlight.
her life gives life.
her energy restores,
thrives and flourishes.
her voice heals.
her presence encourages
others in the midst
of theses challenging times.
PART 11: Cultivating Revolutionary Relationships
In the New Feminine Leadership Culture
As mothers, we create an intimate bond. With our heart, we guide. With our intuition, we care for the baby. Sensing her needs, we respond with our loving kindness. As the child grows so do our experience as women and mothers. The next child will receive improved care. Because we have become seasoned.
Mothers are the light of the family. You know, it is you who determines the direction of your family. You guide with an invisible hand, gently coaxing
It’s nothing short of a miracle that females bring life into the world. We are closely furrowed to the growing embryo during pregnancy. This intimacy influences our nature which makes us best suited to guide human life.
Within our DNA is the history of the human world, passed on from mother to child. An unbroken chain since the beginning of time. We are a part of the Human Dynasty.
For millions of years, we have lived on earth growing and evolving. Everything we know about the human body and mind is coded in our DNA. It is as instinctual as breathing. We need not focus on the task. The lungs inflate and deflate automatically. The heart beats and we take a step, such is the true nature of women.
Our genuine nature is compassion. We have compassion because we know the human condition is full of pain and heartache. Everyone undergoes birth, sickness, old age, and death. This is the Human Condition. Thus, the need for women to step out of the shadows and come into the light. It is the light that is needed at this dark moment in history.
Once attuned to the natural world we women become self-organizing, harmonious and whole. There’ll be no need to look outside oneself for redemption. We’ll discover it in the work we do. Unfortunately, we women have not fully cultivated the power within for such a grand endeavor. When we awaken to how significant we are to influencing human life, all other pretenses will fade away.
We are the carriers of culture and must awaken to our noble mission to be caretakers of humanity. We are the ones who with transform the world. Once we embrace this noble calling there’ll be a groundswell of peace for the modern world.
We are our children’s first teacher. We find stories that will delight, stories that will guide our children in the dark world and stories that will inspire, motivate and empower.
I need you to come into the light and be a guide for not only your children but also the children you may teach. Children need for you to show up authentically so they will know and feel the power pulsating through you. It is the only thing that can reform education. It is your time to step up to a Revolutionary style of leadership.
You must not be afraid. There isn’t anything anyone can do to harm you. The changes you will make are internal. As you make inner changes they will show up automatically in your environment. Like the inner workings of a building. Under the foundation is the matter and workings which produce, heat, air conditioning, and light.
As a child, I thought it was magical when I turned a switch and the light illuminated the room. Not until I looked in the closet and saw the wires and switches that were hidden in the closet did I fully understand.
Such is the glorious mission of women to bring order to the world. But first you must understand what has kept the woman today powerless to make any real change in the world.
Todays’ women are mothers, wives, and lovers, second to man. If we are fortunate to have a man in our lives we are happy and satisfied. Still, there is a longing for something more.
Most women yearn to be a woman with an identity outside of being a mother and wife and working for someone. To proclaim to the world that I have something valuable to offer. That something will bring harmony to the world.
If we women continue to play second not only will our lives be shrouded in unfulfillment but we do a disservice to the world. The world seeks balance, like, Ying and Yang, up and down, in and out, woman and man, boy and girl. We have an essential role to play. Until we define that role, we will continue to seek fulfillment in things outside of ourselves or get lost in a relationship trying to be whole. We are complete just as we are. The only thing is to believe.
We are the carriers of culture. It is our responsibility to guide and mode children. As educators, we must begin to cultivate relationships that empower women and help to define the role of women in life. No longer is it acceptable to just do the job we must, be more. The world needs the feminine energy to balance the male.
For too long men have had their hand in shaping human life. They have done all they can because men are ill-equipped for the job. Just like our current president is ill-equipped to be the president. We must stop following blindly those leaders just because they have been assigned the position. To hold the position requires more than a rigged election or to be put in power because you have the right skin or of the right gender.
Leaders must emerge that want to transform the world.
We must begin to build a feminine leadership culture based on the feminine principles of unity, interconnection, and harmony. There is a life pulsating inside of you, waiting to birth into the world. A self that is eternal, a self that knows and is connected to the wisdom of the world. You must take time to get in touch with this internal life.
We Women as educators have been given a sacred task. To ensure that society flourishes and thrives. The current leadership in the White House reminds me all too well that we must step out from behind the comfort of your desk and stand on the platform and announce to the world that we will lead the charge for a better future for our children. and society
If you came to education to make a difference? This is the right place. Currently, there is a moral decline in the world. It started the moment we traded in our voice for a paycheck. Mothers send their children out into the world ill-prepared to defend themselves from the educational system. A system that wants to take over as the life of the child.
Through our leadership, we can empower all children in our care. This is nothing short of a miracle. Like birth which is also a miracle. Do you believe in miracles? Do you see them every day as you gaze out your window and see the magnificent cities we live in? The wonderful gadgets technology has created to shrink the world down to a manageable size. To be able to speak and see someone on the other side of the world. These are small miracles. We too can create similar miracles with our intention.
It is the intention that sets the focus. The forces then begin to align with your will. Everything you need will appear to make your dreams happen for you. You must lead with the wisdom deep in your life. All you need do is sit quietly in contemplation. Ask the God you believe in for the wisdom and the strength to move on to a higher plane of living.
Digging to the Core of the Earth to find the Seven Keys that Open the Door to the Vast Inner Life.
How to use your mind to break through the many layers of the earth? The first step is to quiet the mind through meditation. Which brings a calmness and a clarity after the dust has settled. This is the level closest to the surface and where you must exert the greatest power. It is through the unity of spirit; of emotion, and mental clarity that you will find the strength to break through the delusions and darkness that has clouded your judgment.
You have begun the journey beneath the surface of the earth. It is here you will find the Seven Keys that open the door to the vast inner life and experience abundant freedom.
The next level down below the surface of the earth is darkness. In the dark spirit grows. It has waited silently until the time was ripe with the fullness of life, It now emerges into the waking state into a Powerful Presence.
This break from the illusions of the lesser self-reveals the power of the feminine aspect of life. This is the power that moves the wind; and spins the earth on its’ axis; the invisible power in the universe. Some call it God, I call it the Human Spirit.
Spirits’ true nature is knowing;
Three layers down from the surface of the earth reveals a calmness. You are out of the storm; In the center where peace reigns. Here your capacity for compassion expands. You are able to hold steady in the face of the constantly changing reality. There is a knowing that pulsates out of immediate awareness, sitting mindfully you’re able to discern the subtle movements of this nature.
You are able to visualize your way out of harm’s way, because you are writing the story from a vantage point below the storm with an expanded awareness of how to solve the problem and which way to go.
This realm that you have just encountered is filled with wisdom and courage. You brings this into your being which makes you able to discern reality as it unfolds. Light floods onto your pathway illuminating the way. Take one step, then the other until you see clearly .
The last layer down in the fiery core of the earth, anger, rage and delusions are buried away. All that remains in the essence of you. A solid inner self-adorned with jewels sparkling like the night star.
You have arrive; bathed in righteousness, justice, love, compassion and wisdom. You ascend back to the surface of the earth. Your outer garments of suspicion, fear, hatred have been burned away. What remains is the essence of you. Your true nature.
Today begins a new day.
I crawl out of this old skin of anger, hopelessness, and apathy.
Like a beetle that creeps out its’ exoskeleton.
Before that happens,
There must be a transformation on the inside.
A sort of rebuilding of the self.
A shift in awareness from the body,
Which like a beetle creates a new.
I have been many such bodies.
An infant, a toddler, a teenager now an adult.
Finally, old age settles like the dew on the morning grass.
Clings for a moment then ascends.
So with this practice of Mindfulness.
You must transcend the limitations of the physical body.
Enter into a Spiritual Body
Detached from the suffering and pain.
Unmoved by the smallness of the ego.
Embrace the vastness of life.
Hold onto the mystery and wonder of the Mind.
Transcend the problems of the flesh
Enter into the sacredness of the
BACK TO NATURE
Love and Accept Yourself: Part II
Womanist Empowerment Series
Description: During P.E.P. Talks, you and I will explore the Seven Steps to BEcome an Empowered Woman. The course has the two basic premises, One is that there exists an authentic self which has to be discovered. Secondly, Self-Realization is an expression used in psychology, spirituality, and Eastern religions. It is defined as the “fulfillment by oneself of the possibilities of one’s character or personality Lastly. The Empowered Woman recognizes that real feminine power lies not in anger and destruction but in self-knowledge, self-reflection, understanding, and transformation.
Three daily practices are part of the POETRY EMPOWERMENT PROJECT. They will help you get in touch with the deeper aspect of your life. Do them, at least, three to four times per week. First thing in the morning, you may want to take
First thing in the morning, you may want to take fifteen minutes of solitude. Take time to tune into The Body Intelligence. This may sound like a lot. However, you are worth the time; take it and be with yourself.
During this fifteen minutes take off your shoes, loosen your belt, clench, hold and release your muscles. You can do this in the morning or at night. While you are clenching and releasing your muscles say to yourself; what do I need to realize about my current situation? Listen to the answer. It is coming from a deeper place that knows.
The next thing for you to do is take the time to write first thing in the morning. They are called, “Morning Pages.” It is exactly three pages of writing. Just write, no editing. Again, just let this writing come from a deeper part of you that knows. Strange this may come up. Do not judge, just accept them. It may bring you clarity.
The last thing for you to do is the “Walk for Clarity”. Take a walk-in nature for about thirty minutes. As you walk, pay attention to your internal dialogue. As you become more accustomed to walking, you will begin to get in touch with your true nature. This is the time to commune with nature and the place inside yourself. Honor and love the wisdom in your life.
POWERFUL WOMEN SHAPE THE FUTURE
Education was the means I would use to affect the hearts and minds of children. After attending two educational conferences at The Florida Nature and Culture Center in Florida, I was primed and ready to change the world. At the meeting, the President of my faith organization stated, the educator is the major deciding factor in shaping the hearts and minds of children. In addition, it is the teacher who can help children find meaning and create value with their life. With a renewed purpose for education, I returned to school ready to shape the future by empowering, educating and socializing children. What I discovered was, the teachers in the school I was assigned plumaged the classroom and commandeered the resources. I had none; the principle did give me a two hundred dollar budget for supplies.
I did not find a compadre among my peers. The principal assigned me the most challenging students. The saying was, “this will make or break you as a teacher.” What about the children, were they given any consideration? It was precisely what veteran teacher wanted, comfortable classrooms and easy assignments. This has created a crisis in education, which translates to a crisis in society.
Unfortunately, this crisis has not concerned the policy makers in education. Education continues to thwart the minds of children and turn them into workers for the state. What is society doing to children? We are smothering the creative minds of children with the current education agenda. Children wear uniforms as a process of conditioning and systematic control. They learn to accept the military presence both at home and abroad. Are we becoming a militarized state?
What I did observe in almost all the elementary schools I was a substitute, children acting out and an overabundance of white female teachers. These predominantly black schools are on the Southside of the city. Most children live in poverty and receive an impoverished education. Schools were not the place children received acceptance land over that empowered them to believe in education and themselves. I was disillusioned, bitter and angry. I left the educational field to pursue other interests.
I had grandiose a plan. I formed a non-profit organization, Vision for Education. I was sure I could single-handily shape this organization and empower children and the world would be a better place. I would create workshops for educator and we would gather and empower one another and co-create a shared vision for education.
This never happened. It was such a far-fetched idea, but I did receive funding from the city of Louisville, KY and also from the Kentucky Foundation for women to pursue art as a way to empower children. I found support and a group of people that worked with me.
Cyd and I planned a yearlong project at her church. The Broadway Cultural Renaissance at West Broadway United Methodist. There were write-ups in the local newspaper and over seventy-five persons from the community attended the first gathering, which included local artists and educators.
I was involved in my local community, went to most meetings and completed a nine-month program spearheaded by The Metro United Way. I met with this group. There were interactive workshops and small group discussion. We were becoming the Change Agents in our community. I was enthusiastic and thought I could help shape my community. My main problem was ignorance to think that I could change something outside myself. I would first have to deal with and heal my emotional wounds.
This second time around I am more confident that I am on the correct path. My decisions are well thought out and come from a place deep inside that longs to make a difference in the world. I have gone through fifteen years of introspection. During that time I healed my deep emotional wounds. This directly influenced the discovery of my gifts and talents which have enabled the feminine aspect of my life to flourish. Buried under the pain, shame and the guilt was a life ready to make a difference in the world.
I am a poet, writer, and educator. It is my belief that we black woman have a unique mission, to shape not only our lives but also the life of our children and the community. I created The Womanist Empowerment Series. It consists of e-books,
It consists of e-books, workshops, and seminars that help the black woman heal the wounds of her emotional body. The secondary goal is to empower the feminine aspect of life and lastly find and identify a feminine archetype for both personal and professional life. This is a direct path to empowerment centered on love, compassion, and respect for all life.
Women shape the future through our relationships with children, both our own and the ones we teach and interact within social or professional settings. When you heal you will gain a source of power from within. There will be no need to dominate the lives of the children in your life. You will learn how to empower children and help them find their place in life. In this way, you become more powerful. You will shape the world into an image that speaks to the highest calling for Human Life.
Step I Powerful Purposefulness:
There is Power in Purpose. Discover your purpose in life. It will direct your actions. Fleeting emotions and transient experiences will not consume you. Integrate the physical, mental, and spiritual aspects of life and become a Powerful Presence in society.
I was listening to a Creative Visualization video the other day.
I closed my eyes and decided to go along for the ride.
I sat back and got comfortable on my sofa.
I looked inside my mind.
The way one does when one wants to think.
I saw a glowing ember and followed it in.
It took me to a place inside myself.
The voice on the video told me to find a struggle.
This was easy because living on the edge I am always in the midst of a struggle.
I looked deeper at the issue that I am now facing and split it open to see what was really inside.
What was holding it together, and made it impossible for me to break free from.
I cut through the skin, it was the toughest.
Now I was able to peel back the legs and dissected it like a frog.
I pinned the legs and the belly back to look inside.
There was a blockage staring back at me.
It was a deep dark hole that I was scared to look in.
I started to crawl slowly because if it was inside of me making me behave a sort of way then I wanted to look at the monster and send it back to its black hole.
Why I am stuck in low-paying jobs, feel like I do not have respect?
Why at fifty-five I am not living comfortably as the calendar says I should.
I bought into this reality for me since I did not have one of my own.
I adopted it like a stepchild.
This lie staring at me had to go;
It would not bring me happiness.
I had to use my imagination to create a life I would love.
Like a little girl with the world at my fingertips.
I could have anything I want.
What did I really want?
What do I want to do with my life?
I could create a life of my dreams.
It is during a Creative Visualization session that I imagine a life of love and beauty of peace of financial freedom,
Where all my bills are paid.
I can travel and vacation and I can be at peace with whatever has happened in my life.
What is the value of the Black woman to the World?
What is the value of the Black woman to her fellow man?
Where does the Black woman stand when there is no room at the table for her demands?
Black woman, you hold the entire world on your shoulders,
The baby on your breast so he can grow strong.
What does the Black man do to the woman that gave him life?
Now he is a man he thinks less of the Black woman.
The black woman, you are the sky!
The Moon and the Stars.
You light up a dark room.
You give so much of yourself
You barely have anything left.
The black woman, you are everything.
Believe in your worth,
The color of your skin,
The texture of your hair,
The swagger in your hips.
The black woman, you are the best!
You love everyone.
Love is your strength,
Love is your power,
It can transform any man.
Open your arms wide and embrace the whole of Humanity.
The black woman, you are in demand.
When you observe your experiences without judgement or expectations you are practicing Mindfulness. You are open and receptive with an expanded awareness. Mindfulness also brings protection from suffering and has the power to bring balance, perspective and freedom to your life.
If you are unaware of what is unseen in your experience you will respond out of habit and suffer. Yes, there is danger and there is pain. This is a part of life and what we call, “The Human Experience.
To live is to experience hurt and pain. On the other hand, at most suffering stems from ignorance. You can accept this as fact and a part of life and live with a sense of happiness and freedom or reject it and suffer.
You can learn to trust this practice of mindfulness as you enter the difficulties of your day. There are four principles of mindfulness if used have the ability totransform your personal experiences.
The first principle of Mindfulness is, (1) Recognize what you are experiencing , (2) Accept what is happening (3) Conduct an investigation into where you are feeling discomfort in your body and what your thoughts are around the experience. (4) Do not identify with what is happening.
You will use these principles any time you want to investigate the root cause of your pain or suffering that you want to transform. You will investigate the way your body responds, the feelings you are having, and your thoughts around the environment that brings on the experience.
We are so accustomed to running on autopilot. Moreover, at any time you can observe your actions to determine if you are responding out of habit and whether your response brings you closer to obtaining your goals and values.
At this current moment, I am writing on my computer. My mind is engaged in the action. As my fingers strike the keys my eyes see the words appear on the page. I am in a classroom with about fifteen students. Some are finishing their math assignment while others work on a computer program.
One student walks up to me and asks, “What is the answer to this problem?” I tell her how to figure it out, but not the answer. I am fully conscious of my breath as it comes in and goes out my nostrils.
I am at ease in this environment. I have been here many times before. I wear a jacket, even though the temperature is quite mild. It was colder earlier in the day. I knew to bring a jacket because the classroom temperature changes throughout the day.
My job as a substitute is an adventure. Some days I do not know what to expect, oftentimes I do. It is the nature of my occupation to be in this environment with children and be the authority figure.
Some children reject this title and tell me I am just a substitute. I am not sure how they see me. Just lately, I have begun to tell students, Substitute does not define me. It is a label and I am much more than a sub. I tell them I have been teaching longer than they have been alive.
I want them to see me as a person first, and not use a label to define me and treat me in a way that is demeaning. I want them to know that a label places people in boxes they may not wish to be in.
I have taught in Pinellas County Public Schools for about seven years. Most children I have taught before. They know who I am and have been in class with me and know what to expect.
They often asked me if I have been to their school. Some students are helpful and quite pleasant. After twenty years, I am comfortable with the diverse background of children I am in class with. I tell them what my expectations are and how we are going to make it through the day.
I am mindfully aware that I come to the classroom environment with expectations of how I want the children to behave and treat me. Some children remark and say, I am mean. I question their judgement, am I?
I have little patience for disrespect and loud and obnoxious behavior. I am learning to go in the classroom with the intention of opening and embracing all children from diverse backgrounds and to leave my expectations out side of the classroom.
DAY-17 3- UNCONSCIOUS ROOT CAUSES OF SUFFERING Unconscious drives have the power to enslave and cause pain. There are predominantly three un-healthly states of mind. If you are always grasping, always seeking, never quite satisified, like an insatiable desire that controlled my life. I was never happy with what I had or the person I was in a relationship with. I always felt it was the other person who caused me so much unhappiness until time spent alone brought me to my knees and caused me to reflect. I glanced back at the last relationship I was in, it showed me a picture of myself. Relationships have the ability to reflect back our innate nature. If this is what I was attracting, then, I need to change myself. I was the only person that was truly responsible for my happiness. I took one look deeply into my life and found the source of my unhappiness. It was a decision I made as a little girl that I continued to believe like the story I have shared before. That story was a lie, but I believed it like it was the truth. I got sick and tired of the suffering and unhappiness and decided that I need to change my story. Realizing that I was an addict and what I was grasping for was like that drink the alcohoic took. Sex never solved my need for love; it only masked the real issue. The next unhealthy state of mind is Aversion; never looking at the real issues. I never addressed the issues in my life. Like an addict, I was looking for some man to make me happy and take care of me. Like drinking to passify a deeper issue. What a delusion I now wake from, which is the third cause of suffering. I wandered in and out of these unhealthy states of mind until the delusions and aversion of living a lie started to wrech havoc on my life and cause physical pain. Many decades of experiencing pain and suffering and searching to find the cause lead me to discover the The Unconscious Roots of my Suffering. I can change the story I tell myself and transform my life. I have to replace the unhealthy states of mind to healthy states. That is tomorrow’s talk.
Greetings this is Pamala, aka Poetess, Cultural Transformational Catalyst, Educator and Poet your guide during the Womanist Empowerment Series. Join me as I continue to pilot the new era of feminine empowerment through Poetry & Talk.
This talk speaks to the absence of authentic feminine leadership models available to young mothers who help their children to grow and develop. Do you want to be empowered both socially and professionally? Help your children to find a source of power within themselves, then follow this series and log onto my Blog @womanistempowermentseries.com
My writings reflect the female model for the world. The external forces that try to control her and the internal force that drives her to self-actualize. The conflict will be played out in the virtual world. This force that drives her is Knowledge and Power. The power to name one’s own reality and self-determination, the power to name one’s own destiny.
Words express my deepest sentiment and how my role as a woman, daughter, leader exceed the expectations prearranged for me. I refuse to be molded by persons and forces around me so inside I ran.
I want you to experience my personal liberation and encourage you to journal and Blog during the next 30-Day virtual retreat that begins in April. You can discover your feminine essence and leadership style and educate your children on how they too can live an empowered life.
The aim of this series is to empower 1 million women who want to guide their children in the 21st Century and build a sustainable culture of empowerment. During the 30-Days, you will discover your feminine essence and experience a Renaissance in Feminine Leadership.
You are the new generation of Womanist Leaders who express their power through the feminine form. I want you to make peace with your softness and vulnerability and stop living with a guarded heart.
During the 30-days, you will connect with your feminine essence, that which makes you a woman. Your personal power and magnetism will grow as you reconnect with an authentic source of power from within.
Womanist Leaders share knowledge, seek understanding and transform their situation into something of value. If you want to discover a source of feminine energy, acknowledge the feminine aspect of life and reclaim your rightful place in society then this series is for you.
I look back over my life as a witness neither judging nor condemning. I see patterns emerge and I begin to make sense of my life and the traps that I fell in. I look at the road I traveled upon that lead me her today. I am liberated from my past. It no longer has a hold on me. I untied the knot in my belly and my life began to unfold. I wanted to be free from tension I felt by holding the weight of the world around my neck. Fear kept me tied in knots, Fear that someone would discover that I wasn’t this strong silent woman that took on the problems of my family, men in my life and would not let anyone see the real me. I was a victim who still thought like a little girl who believed everyone around me had more power than I me. I was at the mercy of his or her good graces. Fear and trepidation filled my life. I had no control over my life or the people in it. I was a victim. I pretended to be strong. Holding onto that façade soon began to break down my body and stress settled on my left side. Pain was my companion as I went through life. It had to change I could no longer hold onto a lie. I believed in love and people until one day my husband walked out on me. I left for work and when I got home him and everything valuable we owned was gone. He left with his young daughter in tow. What was the message he sent to her. She was a part of the plot. I had to go to him for money because he took all I had. I learned that I could not depend upon anyone so I had best take care of myself.
Sitting mindful with sorrow is an act of courage, but it let me see how to break free from some patterns that held me in suffering. My mind played this scene repeatedly. I could not believe this happened to me
(THE WISE QUEEN)
Her path to Queen-Ship
What is it that defines women, is it the beliefs, virtues, or traits? Is it the stories we tell ourselves? What makes women unique; the thing that says who you really are?
Let us look for answers in that quite place within, the spiritual dimension, the subtle presence we feel and know is real, the thing we call nature and personality. How did it all come about? Were you born to fulfill a destiny and if not what are you to do while you’re here on earth? We can also say that leadership is a trait that you can develop.
What are the stories you tell you tell yourself? The person you show to the world? The life that lives through you? Does it happen automatically without any conscious thought at all; or is it a life you were given, birthed into, one your parents revealed to you as you looked into their eyes for acceptance and love. Were you allowed to be, encouraged to develop your gifts and talents or were they smothered like a flame, crushed before you became a flowering plant.
I must first take a journey inside myself to see what I’m really about. I can make some changes if I find traits undesirable to my liking as I become the person I want to be.
We women are as powerful as the roaring sea. Recognize your relationship to humanity; know the path you must travel. Step into full womanhood and lead children, your families and the world with compassion and wisdom. When your time to mature comes you will develop your full potential as a woman and lead the free world.
Put Your Finger on the Pulse and Feel the Beat: The Rhythm of Life.
Part V Ways of the Feminine
Arouse your feminine essence.
Feel centered, open and attractive
From your lower body
Which is weighted
And connected to the earth.
This is the power of the feminine essence.
Move away from masculine energy.
With upper body movements
Shoulder gestures which are Hard, rigid and directive.
The female energy point…
Is the center of the pelvis the
“womb space and down the legs.”
Activate the energy in your hip movement,
Soften your heart and send love
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Part IV Sources of Feminine Power
Do you want for something more? Are you restless? Does anxiety seem to take control of your mind? Do you wonder what is happening? You are awakening to the possibilities of having much more. You are not sure what is happening, but you want more than what you have now.
The gap between who we are and the ability to realize your full potential is within your reach. By looking at your feminine essence as a new source of feminine power, you can begin to close the fissure between men and women and discover your full feminine power.
When you awaken to your feminine power you can begin to co-create with life. The belief you have in yourself will grow stronger and the contribution you give to the world will give you purpose and selfconfidence.
The power you seek is inside of you. Access this power and move past personal patterns. When you learn how to access your feminine power, you will begin to see the world differently and live life from an expanded view.
First, you will learn how you can access this power. Secondly, you will discover a loving relationship with yourself then with others and lastly you will understand how to create and cultivate an alternative power source.
Power is about evolving beyond beliefs and your world-view. Mindfulness training will liberate you from old patterns and the inner glass ceiling. It will be taught during the Mindfulness Training in Step four.
You will learn how to look at your thoughts and watch them without attaching and labeling them as (mine). Your emotions will no longer be an issue as you learn the nature and patterns of your behavior and liberate yourself from them.
Mindfulness will lead to a break through to the other side where you will find freedom, and your real self. As you shift the beliefs you have about yourself and learn the power of relatedness, you become the person you were always looking for. Become a loving mentor to your younger self and clearly see a new way of showing up.
Another aspect of power is in co-creating with life. Learn how to cultivate a positive relationship with the energy and intelligence of the Universe. We women yearn to realize our highest destiny and utilize our gifts and talents in the pursuit of life where we can experience its’ fullness. When you unleash your voice in the world, you will be able to navigate to a future that does not exist. Even though you do not know what it looks like, faith will bring the confidence that is needed.
When you make a shift from your goals and focus on creating results and step into a full partnership with life, power will well up from the depths of your life. This is how your deeper desires will be unleashed. Faith will give you the courage to take the risk, and even though you do not know how everything is going to turn out you will trust in life.
Part III Sources of Female Leadership
First, Feminine Leaders, to fulfill your role properly, would do well to embody the best qualities represented by at least one of the following archetypes. Archetypes are, by their very nature, universal and eternal. They are based on rational forms of thought, and if we accept the idea of a collective consciousness as an image for a deep cultural foundation common to Humanity, then they are universal—hence their power to move, to affect and influence. The archetypes are practical because they provide us with a natural way to understand the essence of a group of traits that connect directly with the unconscious mind.
These archetypes provide both spiritual and emotional pictures that immediately connect with individuals and groups. It is a better way to grasp a feminine model of leadership instead of relying on intellectual analysis of individual attributes.
I will borrow Carl Jung’s archetypes for female leadership. He distinguished himself from noted Psychologist at the time. He recognized the presence and meaning of the personality —which earlier thinkers have called the spirit. Jung recognized and valued those aspects of a person’s whole being.
Jung accepted the spiritual dimension. He knew it was a way to understand the character and the complex system of beliefs, attributes, and virtues that make up a person. If we are to understand leadership as a character trait, then it too becomes amenable that we assign it a more spiritual understanding.
Jung’s concept of the archetypes arises from the repeated observation he made, for instance, of the myths and fairytales of world literature. The literature contained definite themes that cropped up everywhere. We often see the same themes in fantasies, dreams and delusion of individuals living today.
Leadership is an elusive subject not easily recognized because there are complex qualities in the actions of others that elude easy categorization or analysis.
In ancient times “natural leaders”, were persons who possessed the ability to motivate and direct others. Ancient leaders assumed the role of leader at birth or rose to the province. If the person happened to be of weak leadership ability, training would compensate for the weakness in leadership ability. Culture became more complex and social roles followed. Leadership roles have mainly become increasingly “gendered” to reflect social realities.
Paths for Girls and Young Women (The Faerie)
If the Prince develops through the path of the warrior, the princess develops through the path of the Faerie. If you are to evolve to your fullness, you must earn your Queen-ship through a path that involves trial and suffering as the way to experience and maturity. It is the path to Queen Ship.
The Faerie is a symbol of all that is fair and beautiful, all that transcends material existence. She produces poetry, music, and history. The Faerie virtues are intangible and ethereal. At times, they can seem self-sacrificial. Just as if the warrior appears most fully when he gives himself over to death in an act of self-denial, the Faerie seems most complete when she denies herself intercourse with men. This is the source of her power. She places herself outside of any man’s power. Thus, the Faerie can inspire and attract.
An example of Faerie to Queen is Ester in the Bible. Ester agreed to marry Xerces King of Persia, as a possible mate for the sake of her people. The people selected her to be the new Queen. Since she does not marry for love, but rather for duty, she is free of passionate attachments and partakes of the Faerie.
She embraces an unrestrained life force of Eros or pleasure in life itself. This archetype is lifeaffirming and creative; one known modern example is (Beyoncé). She shuns order, sacrifice, and rational knowledge. She is not easily resolved with the orderly world of Queen. She poses a problem in the context of leadership because she is a with a man.
There were many lovers in my life. I thought I could have their power. My husband labeled me as insatiable. This feeling was akin to a hunger that could never be quite satisfied. I wanted to be lost in the sexual passion and lose myself inside of this man, become one with him and absorb the power I thought he had.
(The Wise One)
Another path to Queen Ship leads through the archetype of the Wise One. The Wise One lives in the shadows. She is at home near the earth, even inside the earth, inside the dark, moist primordial womb; she is at home on the land. The Wise One is no longer young. She is mature, rooted, and likely to be old. She is a Mother or likely a Grand-Mother. She has been a companion to male, she may have even loved a man, but she now transcends all that. She has reached a state of superior wisdom.
Her subtle mind seeks not to penetrate beneath the surface of things and probe the mysteries of nature; rather she looks inward into the mysteries of being alive. This earthly knowledge extends to the body more specifically the distinct realities of the female body. The male does not understand this type of woman. She is not under his control. Thus, during the time of the Inquisition, men in power labeled these women as witches and killed them.
It is natural for the Wise-One to seek separation from her sisters who toil in the world. Her quest for unique knowledge requires long hours of solitude for study and reflection. The Wise One becomes a Seer or an Advisor. She may rise to be Queen becoming, “The Wise Queen. “Historically the Queen of Sheba and her counterpoint Solomon fit in this category. The most powerful and inspiring of the archetype of the Wise One is the mystical Figure of Sophia—The Rise of Sophia as the symbol of Divine Wisdom.
The Lover is suspicious of the knowledge of the Wise One because The Wise One has transcended the Lover phase. The Lover seeks to empty herself out and merge or become the beloved. The Female Lover gains the tremendous power of transcendence, but she is subjected to “the other” and, therefore, lacks freedom of the other archetypes. This is her power and limitation.
I too myself have lived a life of solitude. When I was young, it was a source of suffering. A friend drew the conclusion when asked where I had been. My time spent was with a man. Now I understood the power of the Lover in her quest for power which I will allude to later. Female leaders, to fulfill the role properly, would do well to embody the best qualities represented by at least one of the mature feminine archetypes.
Part II Black Woman’s Role in Life and Her Motivation for Living
Akin to West African Folklore, stories express the lifeblood of a culture and the roles men and women play in society. This is important for the essential nature of culture to survive. It teaches the values and morals of a group. This Module will deliver the discourse through Poetry and Talk.
Black Women, we are heirs to a legacy of Black Art. It espouses self-determination, self-reliance, self-respect, self-defense and true self-consciousness as a means for empowerment. Black becomes an identity in the search for meaning and purpose.
Black Women, we must become visible in the world.
We are the ones who must validate our own self-worth, existence and care about womanist values. The Black Woman must heal herself first and conduct self-therapy that documents her suffering and makes it accessible to others.
We Women are the very foundation of society. When we stand, the whole of Humanity will rise. The earth needs both masculine and feminine power. Even though the male and female are not clearly defined, both are required for life to exist.
There is a greater need for Black Women to adopt a womanist perspective for the future of ourselves, our children and the world. A collective story that honors the story and life of Black Women and the world we live in. You can write your own story. You are the author, director, and lead in the starring role.
Part I Align With Your Feminine Power
The Feminine Aspect of Life cannot be controlled; Discover the True Essence of the Black Woman
Cultural Womanism is an idea about how we Black Women can fashion a new language from our experience. We must learn to value and validate our own life through writing and telling stories. One never arrives but always strives to construct a life that expresses a True Self.
Because of the double weight, we women must bear, we have yet to fully mature into our full womanhood. The load we carry draws us away from understanding the collective story of women in society. We take care of the family and face discrimination in the workplace. We have not recognized our collective struggle or victory, and this has hardened and disempowered the Woman.
We women, have power, but it is gentle and sprinkled with love, compassion, and courage. Most women have not had the temperament to thrive and manifest a full womanhood. We needed to survive, but let us do more that survive, let us thrive.
Furthermore, we women have lived through the masculine form and accomplished some amazing things. But what is truly required of women in the Twenty-First Century will take courage, compassion and feminine strength.
Become a powerful woman who is entirely confident in herself and can serve as a role model would reflect on more modest attributes of the Queen. Ideally, all women in “leadership positions” would also, largely embody the Ideal Queen.
Recognize that real feminine power lies not in anger and destruction but in self-knowledge, selfreflection, understanding, and transformation. We females can heal our mind and body as we discover a source of power from within.
Part V In Poetry and Prose
The determination to know oneself,
is like treading across the desert to find an oasis.
Over mountains, through valleys,
Only to see illusions.
Your journey’s not complete.
Many streams lead to the sea;
Sometimes it’s a long journey,
Oftentimes, a short one.
One molecule of water rejoins the sea.
And it becomes one with the great blue.
I am an individual,
Wanting to see a true reflection,
Not, an image someone reflected onto me.
What distinguishes me from the other sex? T
he male who flaunts and flexes,
We, women, too have a muscle.
Soft and gentle,
Understanding and Compassion.
All else wanes,
When the one thing you have hoped for suddenly appears.
Within the personal realm of life, there is a need for a sort of Spiritual Independence, to be able to discern evil from good and have the strength of character not to fall into condoning or looking the other way when a person creates a great evil.
It is by confronting the evil that we can cause such people to open their eyes. Hearing voices resounding with justice has the effect of activating the dormant good nature in the evil person’s heart. You must not be afraid to speak up or act in a way contrary to the widespread way of behaving, be it at work, home, or in your community.
A Spiritual Independence is inherent in the individual—this is the boundless and uncorrupted part of humanity. You have this power to bring forth an unlimited potential in your everyday life. This independent nature is apart from your allegiance to a nation ideology or family values. It is the difference between dependence and self-reliance, deference and empowerment.
All people can connect to this power of spirit. It is this driving force that created the United States and what we now call home. To be powerful is to assume control over one’s destiny. On another level, there is also an opposing force within the human heart.
There is this tension between good and evil. It is especially evident in those holding positions of authority in both government and religion. Evil unchallenged will consume everything. This struggle of the heart consists of the labor we wage in our hearts against our inner darkness or delusion—a battle against the negative and destructive forces within us. It is through strengthening our convictions and beliefs that we can possess this powerful nature of boundless energy. We can break through the darkness obscuring our goodness.
When you see evil in others, you have the potential for evil within yourself as well. By speaking out against any action that hinders the social good, you strengthen your power to contain the evil within yourself.It becomes crucial that you address evil or devilish functions during your life. To be passive in the face of such forces would be self-defeating because those forces are not passive. The idea of Spiritual Independence is a self-empowering philosophy
Really There is a Non-Self.
Our roles and self-image are tentative without permeance. We identify with our habits, thoughts, feelings, and personality, but these are subjective and bound to change. We may be sick one year and healthy or depressed the next. Therefore, we may respond in a different way. Nevertheless, in truth, our natures are not fixed. Begin to see the self as untrue and only a concept.
The Universal and Personal Dimensions:
Our lives have both a personal and universal dimension. These are the two truths we must respect if we are to be happy and free. Freedom comes when we do not cling to one state of mind but see the totality of the experience. We are spiritual beings that have a human form. It is a multilevel perspective that beseech you to step back and examine the situation.
The Universal Dimension is the Big Picture.
It reminds us that all things on earth are transitory and tentative, appearing out of emptiness and then disappearing. We are here to grow in wisdom and compassion and walk on the path of awakening. From the Universal Perspective, all things are born, and they will die. Death comes to our best friends and our parents, sometimes to our children. On the other hand, the Personal Realm of life is in the sacredness of form, our human bodies. We must respect the body and its limitation.
When I am confronting a difficult or challenging situation, this thought comes to mind: “this too will change.” I then align with the universal perspective of life, and rest in consciousness, and watch the pain fade away.
Part 11 How You Create a Self
How You Create a Self?
There are two aspects to the self, the universal and the personal. They both must be respected if you are to be happy and free. During childhood, the self can be created in healthy or unhealthy ways. The development happens so naturally that we soon began to realize we are different and separate from our parents.
All this is normal as we grow and develop and are influenced by our immediate environment. Nevertheless, as we grow and mature, we begin to see ourselves in relationship to others in healthy or unhealthy ways through two processes.
The first self-view takes experiences as I, me, or mine. As a child, I created a self-based on feelings of unworthiness and being unlovable. After that, all my experiences mirrored this back to me. The second self-view is a compared view, which evaluates the sense of self as better than, worse than, or equal to others. This identification repeatedly happens whenever we hold our feelings, thoughts, and perceptions as me or mine during roles we play. I lived in the darkness and shadow of a true self.
Mindfulness allowed me to see what was invisible in the experience and investigate my feelings without judgement. I’ll introduce this step later. I saw how identification with the tentative and impermanent nature of the experience created suffering. I had to learn how to release my mind from this hurt.
While I was experiencing the pain of not feeling loved or valued, I looked to the clouds, and imagined I was floating on the lining with lightness and calm. This helped me release myself from the limiting beliefs that I was unlovable. These thoughts were created in very young mind too inexperienced to evaluate adult behavior. The less we cling to our beliefs, the happier we will be.
What I would want for you is to develop a self that is independent of the thoughts you have and the story you tell yourself. Learn to observe your thoughts without getting lost in them. Let go of the idea that you must believe every thought you have.
Walk into a situation with openness and abundance and the entire world opens. You will be able to see clearly which direction to take. On the other hand, if you have a pre-conceived notion of how things should go and if they do not you cling then suffering will ensue. Let go of the image you have of the self and you will experience fear, but a greater person will emerge, your true self. When we marry, we let go of being single. When our children leave home, we let go of managing their lives.
Another way we identify is by seeing ourselves as members of an ethnic group, religion, tribe, caste, and class. While searching for an understanding of self, do not ask about class, race, or birth. Instead, ask about heart and conduct. We can examine our self -image, our tribe, and our roles and acknowledge they are tentative. We can learn to honor them without becoming lost in the role.