Like an iceberg, most of what you are is submerged below the surface.
If you look closer through a clear mirror you will see.
I gaze through the crystal blue lake and see the massive ice chunk under the blue.
If you look only at the surface you will never see the beauty of the inner world.
Under the sea, deep in a cavern below is where exotic creature live.
In the unconscious mind, which is summered inside of you houses the mysteries of the world. Like taking an expedition through the many layers of the earth. To reveal the core. The hot molten lava, churning. A fire burns inside of you like a hunger. You feed it many things, but not what it really wants. This unconscious mind wants you to discover its secrets. Take a look and see the brilliance. Like looking at the night sky. Millions of tiny stars twinkle. All universes onto themselves. You are a micro of the great universe. Stop acting small. Understand every thought, deed and word is held in the unconscious, even the events of the world, which is a collective unconscious. Split apart the large mountain into tiny rocks, look at them under a microscope to determine what they are. You have power to remake your life and the world.
How can you find solace and peace in a noisy world?
We are constantly bombarded;
thrown in a storm of emotions;
filled with sorrow.
Looking for Peace.
A peace that settles your mind
Steady you steps
They are uneven.
This winter seasons
Trying to stay warm.
Is the time
Go inside yourself
What at other times
Was not Visable
Healing Arts Retreat
You will find
Safety and Security
As you begin to unfural,
Let down your guards.
Look at yourself
with Compassion and love
Take a honest look
And heal the wounds
of your Heart.
An Inquiry into the place where the Ego is absent and Life moves as a Graceful Dance!
The mind is afraid because it holds onto concepts and feelings inside a limited concept of the personal self. It passes judgement, lives in fear, languishes in anger, hopelessness and despair.
To merge with the great ocean of life would be a dissolution of the false sense of self. So the Ego clings, holds onto what isn’t real, like sand running through your fingers, there’s nothing to hold onto so anxiety and fear take hold.
I know it’s the familiar and what’s known.
But an inquiry into the Nature of the present is like watching the tide ebb and flow, merging with the present is like disappearing into the vast deep ocean.
You are as the substance of the ocean, able to swim in the deep, able to flow with the waves and Be as a drop of water that joins with the Sea.
A Source of Creative Expression, Deep Connection & Transformation
This Mandala symbolism was first created by Carl Jung a noted psychologist and he began to explore the unconscious.
Creating a Mandala is a way for a person to strengthen the connective bond between themselves and the natural world and bring into the conscious mind that which is hides where it can then be examined.
When we remove ourselves from the busyness to slow down and tune into the natural environment answers emerge.
I lived with this deep, dark cavern
In the depths of my soul
A vastness that would never be filled.
Like traveling around the globe
Looking for something,
That would fill the void.
Filled it with sex.
Destroyer of happiness.
Caught in a vortex spinning,
Out of control.
Searching for a life vest
In the middle of the ocean.
Drifting on a current
Tossed and turned.
Propelled to the
Middle of the ocean.
Drowning in a
Pool of desire
That would never be filled.
Many moons have appeared
Many seasons have changed.
Trends have come and gone
Money has reappeared.
Left is a heart broken opened
Till it had nothing left.
So it begins to heal itself
From the inside.
Closing the wounds
Applying temporary bandages
Just for some relief.
Until the heart
Has a steady beat
“Put Your Finger on the Pulse
and Feel the Beat,
The Rhythm of Life.”
A path of peace, love and joy
Is the way this heart
Has decided to live.
Knowing desires brings,
Both joy and pain.
Like a fish and water.
Looking from a distance
At the hurt,
Releasing the pain.
A little at a time.
Like squeezing the heart.
Letting the pain ooze out.
Each day a little brighter,
Fills a tiny space.
Until the heart is full.
And can rest.
Each day a bit stronger.
No longer searching outside itself
The dark fertile soil
Has been around
For many moons.
Inviting to the touch.
Walk on the moist green grass
Feel the moisture
See small remnants
Caressing your feet.
Touching , intertwining
Is the Mother,
Sustains all life.
To be honored
Loved and cared for…
You are the earth
This is the Time
To reconnect to the food you eat
The very source of life.
The substance that sustains
Your well being.
Let us reconnect to the soil,
Put our fingers in the dirt.
Feel the ground below our feet.
The air on our cheeks.
Let the wind rustle in the trees.
That fall to the ground.
Remember the source,
From which you came.
Crawling on four,
Then your two feet.
It is time to honor
Comes from the soil.
The green leaves
That nourishes your soul.
Spend the day reconnecting. First with nature then yourself.
We have kissed the feet of Angels.
walked the dark pathway to the Heavens.
sat with the babies!
nursed the sick.
tended to those who have lost their way.
we have stood on the top of the heap!
looking down at the destruction.
saw bodies lying in the streets,
pools of blood collecting at their feet.
i sat looking deeply in a mirror reflection.
at an image that no longer resembles the heart.
a reflection dark and decaying
from a slow death.
i watch as ashes fall to the ground
nourishing the earth.
into fertile ground
that nourishes the soul.
which has taken root.
begins to push through the soil
into bright sunlight.
her life gives life.
her energy restores,
thrives and flourishes.
her voice heals.
her presence encourages
others in the midst
of theses challenging times.
PART 11: Cultivating Revolutionary Relationships
In the New Feminine Leadership Culture
Once attuned to the natural world we women become self-organizing, harmonious and whole. There will be no need to look outside oneself for redemption. We will discover it in the work we do. Unfortunately, we women have not fully cultivated the power within for such a grand endeavor. When we awaken to how significant we are to influencing human life, all other pretenses will fade away.
It is nothing short of a miracle that females bring life into the world. We are closely furrowed to the growing embryo during pregnancy. This intimacy influences our nature which makes us best suited to guide human life.
Within our, DNA is the history of the human world, passed on from mother to child. An unbroken chain since the beginning of time. We are a particle of the Human Dynasty.
For millions of years, we have lived on earth growing and evolving. Everything we know about the human body and mind is coded in our DNA. It is as instinctual as breathing. We need not focus on the task. The lungs inflate and deflate automatically. The heart beats and we take a step, such is the true nature of women.
Our genuine nature is compassion. We have compassion because we know the human condition is full of pain and heartache. Everyone undergoes birth, sickness, old age, and death. This is the Human Condition. We also share a common history and bond. Thus, the need for women to step out of the shadows and come into the light. It is the light that is needed at this dark moment in history.
We are the carriers of culture and must awaken to our noble mission to be caretakers of humanity. We are the ones who with transform the world. Once we embrace this noble calling there will be a groundswell of peace for the modern world.
As mothers, we create an intimate bond. With our heart, we guide. With our intuition, we care for the baby. Sensing her needs, we respond with our loving kindness. As the child grows so do our experience as women and mothers. The next child will receive improved care. Because we have become seasoned.
Mothers are the light of the family. You know, it is you who determines the direction of your family. You guide with an invisible hand, gently coaxing this way and that as you navigate through life. You hold the wisdom of countless mothers that have come before you.
We are our children’s first teacher. We find stories that will delight, stories that will guide our children in the dark world and stories that will inspire, motivate and empower.
I need you to come into the light and be a guide for not only your children but also the children you may teach. Children need for you to show up authentically so they will know and feel the power pulsating through you. It is the only thing that can reform education. It is your time to step up to a Revolutionary style of leadership.
You must not be afraid. There isn’t anything anyone can do to harm you. The changes you will make are internal. As you make inner changes they will show up automatically in your environment. Like the inner workings of a building. Under the foundation is the matter and workings which produce, heat, air conditioning, and light. As a child, I thought it was magical when I turned a switch and light illuminated the room. Not until I looked in the closet and saw the wires and switches that were hidden in the closet did I fully understand.
Such is the glorious mission of women to bring order to the world. But first you must understand what has kept the woman today powerless to make any real change in the world. Todays’ women are mothers, wives, and lovers, second to man. If we are fortunate to have a man in our lives we are happy and satisfied. Still, there is a longing for something more.
Most women yearn to be a woman with an identity outside of being a mother and wife and working for someone. To proclaim to the world that I have something valuable to offer. That something will bring harmony to the world.
If we women continue to play second not only will our lives be shrouded in unfulfillment but we do a disservice to the world. The world seeks balance, like, Ying and Yang, up and down, in and out, woman and man, boy and girl. We have an essential role to play. Until we define that role, we will continue to seek fulfillment in things outside of ourselves or get lost in a relationship trying to be whole. We are complete just as we are. The only thing is to believe.
We are the carriers of culture. It is our responsibility to guide and mode children. As educators, we must begin to cultivate relationships that empower women and help to define the role of women in life. No longer is it acceptable to just do the job we must, be more. The world needs the feminine energy to balance the male.
For too long men have had their hand in shaping human life. Look what they have done. They have done all they can because men are ill-equipped for the job. Just like our current president is ill-equipped to be the president. We must stop following blindly those leaders just because they have been assigned the position. To hold the position requires more than a rigged election or to be put in power because you have the right skin or of the right gender.
Leaders must emerge that want to transform the world.
We must begin to build a feminine leadership culture based on the feminine principles of unity, interconnection, and harmony. There is a life pulsating inside of you, waiting to birth into the world. A self that is eternal, a self that knows and is connected to the wisdom of the world. You must take time to get in touch with this internal life.
We Women as educators have been given a sacred task. To ensure that society flourishes and thrives. The current leadership in the White House reminds me all too well that we must step out from behind the comfort of your desk and stand on the platform and announce to the world that we will lead the charge for a better future for our children. and society
If you came to education to make a difference? This is the right place. Currently, there is a moral decline in the world. It started the moment we traded in our voice for a paycheck. Mothers send their children out into the world ill-prepared to defend themselves from the educational system. A system that wants to take over as the life of the child.
Through our leadership, we can empower all children in our care. This is nothing short of a miracle. Like birth which is also a miracle. Do you believe in miracles? Do you see them every day as you gaze out your window and see the magnificent cities we live in? The wonderful gadgets technology has created to shrink the world down to a manageable size. To be able to speak and see someone on the other side of the world. These are small miracles. We too can create similar miracles with our intention.
It is the intention that sets the focus. The forces then begin to align with your will. Everything you need will appear to make your dreams happen for you. You must lead with the wisdom deep in your life. All you need do is sit quietly in contemplation. Ask the God you believe in for the wisdom and the strength to move on to a higher plane of living.
Today begins a new day.
I crawl out of this old skin of anger, hopelessness, and apathy.
Like a beetle that creeps out its’ exoskeleton.
Before that happens,
There must be a transformation on the inside.
A sort of rebuilding of the self.
A shift in awareness from the body,
Which like a beetle creates a new.
I have been many such bodies.
An infant, a toddler, a teenager now an adult.
Finally, old age settles like the dew on the morning grass.
Clings for a moment then ascends.
So with this practice of Mindfulness.
You must transcend the limitations of the physical body.
Enter into a Spiritual Body
Detached from the suffering and pain.
Unmoved by the smallness of the ego.
Embrace the vastness of life.
Hold onto the mystery and wonder of the Mind.
Transcend the problems of the flesh
Enter into the sacredness of the
BACK TO NATURE
Love and Accept Yourself: Part II
Womanist Empowerment Series
Description: During P.E.P. Talks, you and I will explore the Seven Steps to BEcome an Empowered Woman. The course has the two basic premises, One is that there exists an authentic self which has to be discovered. Secondly, Self-Realization is an expression used in psychology, spirituality, and Eastern religions. It is defined as the “fulfillment by oneself of the possibilities of one’s character or personality Lastly. The Empowered Woman recognizes that real feminine power lies not in anger and destruction but in self-knowledge, self-reflection, understanding, and transformation.
Three daily practices are part of the POETRY EMPOWERMENT PROJECT. They will help you get in touch with the deeper aspect of your life. Do them, at least, three to four times per week. First thing in the morning, you may want to take
First thing in the morning, you may want to take fifteen minutes of solitude. Take time to tune into The Body Intelligence. This may sound like a lot. However, you are worth the time; take it and be with yourself.
During this fifteen minutes take off your shoes, loosen your belt, clench, hold and release your muscles. You can do this in the morning or at night. While you are clenching and releasing your muscles say to yourself; what do I need to realize about my current situation? Listen to the answer. It is coming from a deeper place that knows.
The next thing for you to do is take the time to write first thing in the morning. They are called, “Morning Pages.” It is exactly three pages of writing. Just write, no editing. Again, just let this writing come from a deeper part of you that knows. Strange this may come up. Do not judge, just accept them. It may bring you clarity.
The last thing for you to do is the “Walk for Clarity”. Take a walk-in nature for about thirty minutes. As you walk, pay attention to your internal dialogue. As you become more accustomed to walking, you will begin to get in touch with your true nature. This is the time to commune with nature and the place inside yourself. Honor and love the wisdom in your life.
POWERFUL WOMEN SHAPE THE FUTURE
Education was the means I would use to affect the hearts and minds of children. After attending two educational conferences at The Florida Nature and Culture Center in Florida, I was primed and ready to change the world. At the meeting, the President of my faith organization stated, the educator is the major deciding factor in shaping the hearts and minds of children. In addition, it is the teacher who can help children find meaning and create value with their life. With a renewed purpose for education, I returned to school ready to shape the future by empowering, educating and socializing children. What I discovered was, the teachers in the school I was assigned plumaged the classroom and commandeered the resources. I had none; the principle did give me a two hundred dollar budget for supplies.
I did not find a compadre among my peers. The principal assigned me the most challenging students. The saying was, “this will make or break you as a teacher.” What about the children, were they given any consideration? It was precisely what veteran teacher wanted, comfortable classrooms and easy assignments. This has created a crisis in education, which translates to a crisis in society.
Unfortunately, this crisis has not concerned the policy makers in education. Education continues to thwart the minds of children and turn them into workers for the state. What is society doing to children? We are smothering the creative minds of children with the current education agenda. Children wear uniforms as a process of conditioning and systematic control. They learn to accept the military presence both at home and abroad. Are we becoming a militarized state?
What I did observe in almost all the elementary schools I was a substitute, children acting out and an overabundance of white female teachers. These predominantly black schools are on the Southside of the city. Most children live in poverty and receive an impoverished education. Schools were not the place children received acceptance land over that empowered them to believe in education and themselves. I was disillusioned, bitter and angry. I left the educational field to pursue other interests.
I had grandiose a plan. I formed a non-profit organization, Vision for Education. I was sure I could single-handily shape this organization and empower children and the world would be a better place. I would create workshops for educator and we would gather and empower one another and co-create a shared vision for education.
This never happened. It was such a far-fetched idea, but I did receive funding from the city of Louisville, KY and also from the Kentucky Foundation for women to pursue art as a way to empower children. I found support and a group of people that worked with me.
Cyd and I planned a yearlong project at her church. The Broadway Cultural Renaissance at West Broadway United Methodist. There were write-ups in the local newspaper and over seventy-five persons from the community attended the first gathering, which included local artists and educators.
I was involved in my local community, went to most meetings and completed a nine-month program spearheaded by The Metro United Way. I met with this group. There were interactive workshops and small group discussion. We were becoming the Change Agents in our community. I was enthusiastic and thought I could help shape my community. My main problem was ignorance to think that I could change something outside myself. I would first have to deal with and heal my emotional wounds.
This second time around I am more confident that I am on the correct path. My decisions are well thought out and come from a place deep inside that longs to make a difference in the world. I have gone through fifteen years of introspection. During that time I healed my deep emotional wounds. This directly influenced the discovery of my gifts and talents which have enabled the feminine aspect of my life to flourish. Buried under the pain, shame and the guilt was a life ready to make a difference in the world.
I am a poet, writer, and educator. It is my belief that we black woman have a unique mission, to shape not only our lives but also the life of our children and the community. I created The Womanist Empowerment Series. It consists of e-books,
It consists of e-books, workshops, and seminars that help the black woman heal the wounds of her emotional body. The secondary goal is to empower the feminine aspect of life and lastly find and identify a feminine archetype for both personal and professional life. This is a direct path to empowerment centered on love, compassion, and respect for all life.
Women shape the future through our relationships with children, both our own and the ones we teach and interact within social or professional settings. When you heal you will gain a source of power from within. There will be no need to dominate the lives of the children in your life. You will learn how to empower children and help them find their place in life. In this way, you become more powerful. You will shape the world into an image that speaks to the highest calling for Human Life.
Step I Powerful Purposefulness:
There is Power in Purpose. Discover your purpose in life. It will direct your actions. Fleeting emotions and transient experiences will not consume you. Integrate the physical, mental, and spiritual aspects of life and become a Powerful Presence in society.
I was listening to a Creative Visualization video the other day.
I closed my eyes and decided to go along for the ride.
I sat back and got comfortable on my sofa.
I looked inside my mind.
The way one does when one wants to think.
I saw a glowing ember and followed it in.
It took me to a place inside myself.
The voice on the video told me to find a struggle.
This was easy because living on the edge I am always in the midst of a struggle.
I looked deeper at the issue that I am now facing and split it open to see what was really inside.
What was holding it together, and made it impossible for me to break free from.
I cut through the skin, it was the toughest.
Now I was able to peel back the legs and dissected it like a frog.
I pinned the legs and the belly back to look inside.
There was a blockage staring back at me.
It was a deep dark hole that I was scared to look in.
I started to crawl slowly because if it was inside of me making me behave a sort of way then I wanted to look at the monster and send it back to its black hole.
Why I am stuck in low-paying jobs, feel like I do not have respect?
Why at fifty-five I am not living comfortably as the calendar says I should.
I bought into this reality for me since I did not have one of my own.
I adopted it like a stepchild.
This lie staring at me had to go;
It would not bring me happiness.
I had to use my imagination to create a life I would love.
Like a little girl with the world at my fingertips.
I could have anything I want.
What did I really want?
What do I want to do with my life?
I could create a life of my dreams.
It is during a Creative Visualization session that I imagine a life of love and beauty of peace of financial freedom,
Where all my bills are paid.
I can travel and vacation and I can be at peace with whatever has happened in my life.
What is the value of the Black woman to the World?
What is the value of the Black woman to her fellow man?
Where does the Black woman stand when there is no room at the table for her demands?
Black woman, you hold the entire world on your shoulders,
The baby on your breast so he can grow strong.
What does the Black man do to the woman that gave him life?
Now he is a man he thinks less of the Black woman.
The black woman, you are the sky!
The Moon and the Stars.
You light up a dark room.
You give so much of yourself
You barely have anything left.
The black woman, you are everything.
Believe in your worth,
The color of your skin,
The texture of your hair,
The swagger in your hips.
The black woman, you are the best!
You love everyone.
Love is your strength,
Love is your power,
It can transform any man.
Open your arms wide and embrace the whole of Humanity.
The black woman, you are in demand.
When you observe your experiences without judgement or expectations you are practicing Mindfulness. You are open and receptive with an expanded awareness. Mindfulness also brings protection from suffering and has the power to bring balance, perspective and freedom to your life.
If you are unaware of what is unseen in your experience you will respond out of habit and suffer. Yes, there is danger and there is pain. This is a part of life and what we call, “The Human Experience.
To live is to experience hurt and pain. On the other hand, at most suffering stems from ignorance. You can accept this as fact and a part of life and live with a sense of happiness and freedom or reject it and suffer.
You can learn to trust this practice of mindfulness as you enter the difficulties of your day. There are four principles of mindfulness if used have the ability totransform your personal experiences.
The first principle of Mindfulness is, (1) Recognize what you are experiencing , (2) Accept what is happening (3) Conduct an investigation into where you are feeling discomfort in your body and what your thoughts are around the experience. (4) Do not identify with what is happening.
You will use these principles any time you want to investigate the root cause of your pain or suffering that you want to transform. You will investigate the way your body responds, the feelings you are having, and your thoughts around the environment that brings on the experience.
We are so accustomed to running on autopilot. Moreover, at any time you can observe your actions to determine if you are responding out of habit and whether your response brings you closer to obtaining your goals and values.
At this current moment, I am writing on my computer. My mind is engaged in the action. As my fingers strike the keys my eyes see the words appear on the page. I am in a classroom with about fifteen students. Some are finishing their math assignment while others work on a computer program.
One student walks up to me and asks, “What is the answer to this problem?” I tell her how to figure it out, but not the answer. I am fully conscious of my breath as it comes in and goes out my nostrils.
I am at ease in this environment. I have been here many times before. I wear a jacket, even though the temperature is quite mild. It was colder earlier in the day. I knew to bring a jacket because the classroom temperature changes throughout the day.
My job as a substitute is an adventure. Some days I do not know what to expect, oftentimes I do. It is the nature of my occupation to be in this environment with children and be the authority figure.
Some children reject this title and tell me I am just a substitute. I am not sure how they see me. Just lately, I have begun to tell students, Substitute does not define me. It is a label and I am much more than a sub. I tell them I have been teaching longer than they have been alive.
I want them to see me as a person first, and not use a label to define me and treat me in a way that is demeaning. I want them to know that a label places people in boxes they may not wish to be in.
I have taught in Pinellas County Public Schools for about seven years. Most children I have taught before. They know who I am and have been in class with me and know what to expect.
They often asked me if I have been to their school. Some students are helpful and quite pleasant. After twenty years, I am comfortable with the diverse background of children I am in class with. I tell them what my expectations are and how we are going to make it through the day.
I am mindfully aware that I come to the classroom environment with expectations of how I want the children to behave and treat me. Some children remark and say, I am mean. I question their judgement, am I?
I have little patience for disrespect and loud and obnoxious behavior. I am learning to go in the classroom with the intention of opening and embracing all children from diverse backgrounds and to leave my expectations out side of the classroom.
DAY-17 3- UNCONSCIOUS ROOT CAUSES OF SUFFERING Unconscious drives have the power to enslave and cause pain. There are predominantly three un-healthly states of mind. If you are always grasping, always seeking, never quite satisified, like an insatiable desire that controlled my life. I was never happy with what I had or the person I was in a relationship with. I always felt it was the other person who caused me so much unhappiness until time spent alone brought me to my knees and caused me to reflect. I glanced back at the last relationship I was in, it showed me a picture of myself. Relationships have the ability to reflect back our innate nature. If this is what I was attracting, then, I need to change myself. I was the only person that was truly responsible for my happiness. I took one look deeply into my life and found the source of my unhappiness. It was a decision I made as a little girl that I continued to believe like the story I have shared before. That story was a lie, but I believed it like it was the truth. I got sick and tired of the suffering and unhappiness and decided that I need to change my story. Realizing that I was an addict and what I was grasping for was like that drink the alcohoic took. Sex never solved my need for love; it only masked the real issue. The next unhealthy state of mind is Aversion; never looking at the real issues. I never addressed the issues in my life. Like an addict, I was looking for some man to make me happy and take care of me. Like drinking to passify a deeper issue. What a delusion I now wake from, which is the third cause of suffering. I wandered in and out of these unhealthy states of mind until the delusions and aversion of living a lie started to wrech havoc on my life and cause physical pain. Many decades of experiencing pain and suffering and searching to find the cause lead me to discover the The Unconscious Roots of my Suffering. I can change the story I tell myself and transform my life. I have to replace the unhealthy states of mind to healthy states. That is tomorrow’s talk.
Greetings this is Pamala, aka Poetess, Cultural Transformational Catalyst, Educator and Poet your guide during the Womanist Empowerment Series. Join me as I continue to pilot the new era of feminine empowerment through Poetry & Talk.
This talk speaks to the absence of authentic feminine leadership models available to young mothers who help their children to grow and develop. Do you want to be empowered both socially and professionally? Help your children to find a source of power within themselves, then follow this series and log onto my Blog @womanistempowermentseries.com
My writings reflect the female model for the world. The external forces that try to control her and the internal force that drives her to self-actualize. The conflict will be played out in the virtual world. This force that drives her is Knowledge and Power. The power to name one’s own reality and self-determination, the power to name one’s own destiny.
Words express my deepest sentiment and how my role as a woman, daughter, leader exceed the expectations prearranged for me. I refuse to be molded by persons and forces around me so inside I ran.
I want you to experience my personal liberation and encourage you to journal and Blog during the next 30-Day virtual retreat that begins in April. You can discover your feminine essence and leadership style and educate your children on how they too can live an empowered life.
The aim of this series is to empower 1 million women who want to guide their children in the 21st Century and build a sustainable culture of empowerment. During the 30-Days, you will discover your feminine essence and experience a Renaissance in Feminine Leadership.
You are the new generation of Womanist Leaders who express their power through the feminine form. I want you to make peace with your softness and vulnerability and stop living with a guarded heart.
During the 30-days, you will connect with your feminine essence, that which makes you a woman. Your personal power and magnetism will grow as you reconnect with an authentic source of power from within.
Womanist Leaders share knowledge, seek understanding and transform their situation into something of value. If you want to discover a source of feminine energy, acknowledge the feminine aspect of life and reclaim your rightful place in society then this series is for you.
I look back over my life as a witness neither judging nor condemning. I see patterns emerge and I begin to make sense of my life and the traps that I fell in. I look at the road I traveled upon that lead me her today. I am liberated from my past. It no longer has a hold on me. I untied the knot in my belly and my life began to unfold. I wanted to be free from tension I felt by holding the weight of the world around my neck. Fear kept me tied in knots, Fear that someone would discover that I wasn’t this strong silent woman that took on the problems of my family, men in my life and would not let anyone see the real me. I was a victim who still thought like a little girl who believed everyone around me had more power than I me. I was at the mercy of his or her good graces. Fear and trepidation filled my life. I had no control over my life or the people in it. I was a victim. I pretended to be strong. Holding onto that façade soon began to break down my body and stress settled on my left side. Pain was my companion as I went through life. It had to change I could no longer hold onto a lie. I believed in love and people until one day my husband walked out on me. I left for work and when I got home him and everything valuable we owned was gone. He left with his young daughter in tow. What was the message he sent to her. She was a part of the plot. I had to go to him for money because he took all I had. I learned that I could not depend upon anyone so I had best take care of myself.
Sitting mindful with sorrow is an act of courage, but it let me see how to break free from some patterns that held me in suffering. My mind played this scene repeatedly. I could not believe this happened to me
This is a pivotal moment in history. The world awaits the Creative Class. You are the one that can transform the world. We people who use our creative energy stirring within to create a business that will transform the world.
What type of transformation you might ask? A movement that leads us out of darkness, ignorance and fear into the light of truth, justice and creativity. We women can create new solutions to the world’s problems when we transform the heart. Become a part of the leadership that transform the world.
We have been trying to change the world from the outside, trying to make it fit the image in our heads. Instead, change your life from within and like a mirror, the world reflects back.
Who better equipped to lead in this new “Age of Transformation,” The mothers, The Women, The Nurtures and Givers. When you transform your heart and create Heart-Based Businesses then the world will experience a surge of new energy in the world.
That energy is the feminine spirit lying dormant in your life. I can help you get awaken the greatness in your life. I have created a Feminine Transformational Leadership Project that will help you to grow and develop into a leader that will empower and transform the lives of the people on your team or in your company. Follow my Blog @womanistempowermentseries.com
I am a child of the 60’s
Born at a time when being Black
I wore an afro.
Went to the barbershop to have it trimmed.
Lived in a Black neighborhood
All I knew was black!
Went to a school filled with black teachers.
Black is my soul.
So much a part of me,
If I would give it up,
I would cease to exist.
Black is an attitude.
Black is soul food.
Black is music & swagger.
Black is a language.
The way I walk; the way I dance
Black are my ancestors who helped build America!
I too am an American!
Do you want to feel a sense of power in your life?
That you have the ability to control the destiny of the world.
That your children will be safe and secure
Fear not of being a victim of random acts of violence.
Then you must secure the nation you live in.
Build “A Safe Place inside Yourself”,
Then outside world will match what is in your head.
Do you want clean air and fresh water, live in a world that values life?
Then what you must have your own Human Revolution.
A revolution in your thinking,
A revolution in how you see and relate to life.
You are a co-creator with life.
Accept your noble mission as an envoy to earth.
Your advent is to transform.
As life passes through you,
As experiences shape you.
Let the experience go through.
Use the wisdom deep in your life to transform.
As you exhale and put energy back into the world.
Be it of healing of empowering and transform.
Do you want to feel a sense of power in your life?
That you have the ability to control the destiny of the world?
That your children will be safe and secure and not fear being a victim of random violence.
Then you must secure the nation that you live in.
Build a safe place inside yourself,
Then the world outside will begin to match what is in your head.
Do you want clean air and fresh water?
Live in a world that values life.
Then you must have your own human revolution.
Deep within the inner recess of your mind and heart is your connection to God.
It is here that you must rest in the heart beat,
Then the connect will begin.
In your thinking,
In how you see the world
In how you relate to life.
You are a co-creator with life.
Your advent in this world is to transform.
Accept the noble mission as an envoy to earth.
As life pass through you and experiences shape your heart.
Let the energy flow through.
Use the wisdom at a level of unity of self to transform.
Let your actions and words flow from your greater self.
Exhale and put energy into the world.
Be it healing or empowering, just create a better life.
Be a reflection of light, power, beauty and value.
You were born to bring beauty and build a strong Human Community.
The rousing sentiment in me
awaken my spirit
cause my inner recess to burst forth
beget new life…
see and acknowledge
this time of rebirth
a way of being
of Bob Marley,
love, justice and peace
An ambiance of humility
no longer a dream
that lives in me
truth I see
Joy and heaven on earth
no want for death to liberate me
I create a new reality.
Greetings, welcome to the gathering of Guardians of the earth, Keepers of the Culture, Pamala here, Culture Transformation Catalyst. I’m pleased that you joined me on this journey as we reconstruct the story of women in society. I will be your guide as we explore through two venues of the Creative Arts a “Vision of Feminine Power”. The Art of Dialogue & The Art of Poetry. During these sessions you and I will explore the two dimensions of life, the universal and the personal. The goal of this series is to empower women to fulfill their most ambitious mission in this life time. This gathering of women is where we will awaken to our most noble purpose and mission as women in society. It is my most ambitions endeavor thus far and what gives my life meaning and purpose.
The Womanist Empowerment Series shares the teachings from the text,“The Wise Heart”, By Jack Kornfield: A Guide to the Universal Teachings of Buddhist Psychology. The knowledge and wisdom teachings will be presented during seminars, poetry, writing & art sessions, during readings and performances.
During the (session) – I will present wisdom teachings and practices that will awaken the deeper dimension of the self, the “universal”. One of the main practices is Mindfulness; a state of mind that has always been available to you, which is aware, non-judging and respectful. You will experience how to access your higher consciousness through a daily practice of mindfulness. After each wisdom teaching you will have the opportunity to respond by creating a piece of poetry.
Poetry created from the experience will be published in an anthology. You’ll also have the opportunity to read your work in a public forum along with the other participants. Together we will create the lore of women in society.
You’ll recognize compassion as your deepest nature and confirm you interdependence with all life. You will respond positively and create value from every experience you have.
You’ll learn how to utilize the relationships in your life and discover a more enlightened way of relating. First with yourself, secondly your significant other, life partner or spouse and lastly children.
For over twenty years I’ve taught young children to read and write in public schools. It has been my greatest challenge and from which I’ve grown the most. Formerly trained in Guidance & Counseling, I bring a passion for education and an understanding of the human potential, coupled with my love of poetry, united to bring a complete experience for the mind, body and spirit.
I remember being a little girl left alone at home one Sunday morning when everyone else had gone to church. My father is a minister and we children were preacher kids. We were told to behave and always do what was expected. I told my mother I was sick. I asked her if my little brother could stay home with me. She told me if I stayed home I would be by myself. I wanted to watch Voyage to the Bottom of the Sea.
When my mother left out the door lonesomeness closed in like an invisible presence. I felt as if I was the only person in the world, stranded on a deserted island. Dread and fear welled up in me. I curled into a ball and cried. I felt abandoned and unloved. This one experience began the solemn state of life I lived. I would recreate the same experience for over forty years.
Never did I imagine that one decision would affect my life so traumatically, neither did my mother think I would be so traumatized by the experience that it would shroud my life in utter darkness.
I felt unloved and unworthy. Later as a teenager and adult I felt victimized by life. After each act of transgression by the other I responded with anger. The drama would unfold for many years. Anger was the wall I erected to protect me from an imagined perpetrator.
This was not the life I wanted to live. I withdrew into myself and from the world and did everything to transform my life. Relationships were a source of pain. I wanted them and realized they were important, but the past was a constant reminder so I kept people at a distance.
I had to change. The stress of holding onto past trauma had a strong-hold. The left side of my body held all the ill feelings. There was tension that knotted into balls coiling around my hip, creating an impasse. I felt a stroke was evident.
Sitting mindful with sorrow and fear is an act of courage. You and I can reconstruct the Story of our joys and pains and restore the Nobility of Woman.
Twenty-five years of chanting Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo transformed feelings of anger into compassion; my unworthiness helped me to value my own life. I no longer feel like a victim. My experiences help to shape me into the person I am today and helped me turn my karma into mission.
Today, I stand a culture transformation catalyst for the empowerment of women, each relationship I entered into revealed a part of me that lived in shadows, that I needed to let go of. When I released the hurt created from the past I saw how I had created my own painful experiences.
Poetry became my way of expressing and giving voice to my experiences both positive and negative. I let go of being a victim. It that no longer served the person I was becoming. The past, but a memory no longer controls my life. I’ve discovered a deeper purpose and mission for my life.
My worries were like clouds obscuring the sun, I observed them and let them go, they disintegrated and the source of inner light was revealed, What came into view was my true value and worth as a female in society.
You and I can transform the culture of fear dominant in Western Culture when we reconstruct a common story. Through this series of training in Mindfulness, dialogue and poetry we can co-create a culture of loving kindness, compassion, fearlessness and wisdom.
You and I will celebrate as we share our new found way of being and embody this driving force of cooperation and symbiosis, “The Dance of Life”, living together as two.
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It was 1987 I had just graduated from the University of Louisville with a BS in Guidance/Counseling with no prospects for the future. I enrolled in Graduate school and continued my studies but soon my plan to spend my life studying at the University come to an end. I had to find a job.
My search for employment leads me to volunteer at the Crisis Center in Louisville, KY as a phone counselor. Soon thereafter, I came to realize how my environment mirrored my emotional and mental state. Oftentimes my pain and anger hid behind walls of shame and guilt.
I did manage to find a job as a Camp Counselor for emotionally disturbed girls, but it was in Brooksville, Florida I left my daughter for over two years with her father’s family that would prove to be a costly mistake that at another time and post I will address.
The camp was in a wilderness setting. Living there afforded me the opportunity for enough quiet time to journal. It was there that I got in touch my own emotions scars whilst I helped the campers through their own problems using Reality Therapy.
Poetry was how I expressed my truth. It put me in touch with my deepest pain and my greatest joy. This was a pivotal point in my life that helped me to discover my passion for Education.
Realizing an Outward Sense of Purpose
I returned home after spending two and a half years in Florida. All I could think about was how I was going to open a program or a home for the emotionally disturbed girl. This never happened. I had to find a way to make a living, education opened to me. I also married the man of my dreams and spent five years in bliss, but this too failed to quiet my restless heart.
I had completed my studies in Louisville a few years prior at the School of Education but teaching was never on my radar. Suddenly I was in the education teaching in public schools. I invested over one hundred percent of my time and effort to make it work. It proved fruitless.
I was an elementary school teacher. Every year I changed classrooms trying to find my niche. I found no camaraderie with my peers or principal. However, there were bright moments in my nine years as a classroom teacher as my practice of Buddhism flourished.
It was within the Buddhist practice that I found meaning and a sense of purpose. I attended two Educational conferences in Florida. There I found a sense of hope. We discussed a renewed purpose for education. It was determined that the single most important factor in changing the world was the educator. This gave me confidence. I returned to school only to be met with resistance and a business as usual attitude.
Disillusionment and the Perfect Storm as I searched for Purpose and Meaning
What I found in education was the opposite of what I learned at the conferences. Education took on a new meaning. Teaching children to take a test was the purpose of education. Giving difficult teaching assignments to new teachers was the protocol. Making children wear uniforms during times of war and insisting on a nationalist agenda went against all that I thought was the purpose of education. This was not the place for me.
Two Thousand One was the Year of the Perfect Storm!
I walked away from my career as a teacher; from my marriage to the man that I always loved; and the faith organization where I had dedicated over fifteen years of my life.
Sitting at home looking for a way to express my grief, poetry and writing open the floodgates to my sorrow. It would flow for many years. Stories, articles, and poetry found its’ way on empty pages. Still, I did not have a way to find meaning and purpose for my life. This would begin another search but I would be more focused and inner-directed.
Realizing an Authentic Sense of Purpose
Thirteen years later, my Blog and now this book I am writing expresses my deepest hope for humanity. I write to express my Humanity and to restore my Emotional and Mental Wellbeing. Writing helps me to make sense of the world. Book Talks are how I will continue with my love for teaching.
I write to reconstruct my life. Writing helped me to discover the Seven Keys to Life. The Keys are a PANACEA for achieving Optimum Emotional and Mental Wellbeing. This is how I will make a difference in the world and fulfill my highest potential as a Human Being.
For over twenty-seven-years I have followed the teachings of Nichiren Daishonin, a Buddhist Priest who lived during the 1200’s. Nichiren discovered the secrets of life and found a way to embody the teachings in a simple phrase, Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo. The phrase is the key to opening the secretive aspects of your life. It is the foundation for my Seven Keys to Transformational Leadership Program. It connects and opens the path to living consciously. This paper sets forth a study of the mind and a philosophy for life. It does not advocate the religious dogma associated with religion.
The greatness of this phrase is in its simplicity. It had to be simple enough for anyone to practice. The phrase is like a key that opens the door to the vast inner life. This vast inner life is the soul that we talk about, but do not know its’ purpose or how we can access its’ wisdom. When you chant these words repeatedly, you fuse your life with the life of the universe. You are no longer a water molecule but you are the sea.
It is like you become one with your own heartbeat. As you continue to say these words, the sounds radiate out into the universe. We know that sound travels on waves. You are like a tuning fork, each beat bring your heart, mind, spirit and body into complete alignment. You are congruent; you move in a single direction toward wholeness. You begin to heal the splintered parts of yourself.
You have thus begun to align with your true self. These waves interact with other waves and they begin to travel the same path. The channel is to the sea. All rivers flow to the ocean. You are like an orchestra, each instrument plays its own tune, but together you are beautiful music. Your life begins to sound like a wonderful piece of music, like beauty in motion.
You connect authentically with yourself and this extends to all the relationships in your life. You have not only transformed your life, but the lives of those whom you guide. This is the power of the Transformational Leadership Program.
You become a beautiful work of art. People rise on your upbeat. You master what it means to be human and become a leader for your family, your work-world and society.
Creative humans inspire greatness in others. Our lives are but an instrument of beauty and grace. We bring beauty to the world. You are the one who can bring your family, your community and the world into alignment. Put Your Finger on the Pulse and Feel the Beat, The Rhythm of Life.
Log onto my Blog @ womanistempowermentseries.com and follow via email. Become a part of building The New Human Community as we chronicle the rise through Poetry & Talk. Participate in the dialogue as we discover a source of Feminine Power that empowers the Feminine Aspect of Life; both male and female are the Ying and Yang of Life.
I believe in Humanity!
I believe women have the power to transform the world!
I believe we are all one infinite creative power source!
I no longer believe in an external God that will save us because religion only separates.
I want to live in a world of peace and love where each and every one discover their power of purpose and come into their full power as a human being and solve the world’s problems instead of creating more of the same.
Here is what I know for sure:
People are children of the Universe, born out of galaxies of matter and spirit. There pulsates a creative urge in all of us that wants to birth life, we are born, we die, and nothing really matters and last but love.
Love is the source of life; we are born to love; love will save us; the love for a Humanity not of a God in the sky that dispenses punishment, there is no such God, That concept of a God live in the mind of Man. The world turns on Karma; what-ever you do will come back to you, no matter the time or the day.
I know that my life has meaning and purpose. Each day I work and strive to realize my full potential and make a difference in the world.
Always put love in your heart. Let your heart think and your mind feel. No matter what you feel it will pass; all things flow to the sea. We are all going to end up in the sea at a different time. No matter the color of the skin or the gender or sexual preference all are children of the divine with a mission to perform whilst here on earth.
Wake up and realize who you are; you are a water molecule in the great sea of life, connected to everything. Life at each moment contains the whole of the Universe. With this knowledge go forth in the world, be happy and at peace.
A Vision of Peace that begins with you when you release negativity and the weight of the world you have been holding for so long.
A vision of love that restores your heart to the heart of Queen who love all people because she knows the greatest asset are the people living on the land. She believes in her power to greet each day with a smile and guide children with love.
A Vision of Feminine Power that restores the meaning of humanity that was lost in the pursuit of the American Dream. We are the dreamers. The ones who can co-create a better world.
There is a source of power that you can harness for betterment of every man, woman and child. Bring them into the fold.
There is an abundance in life when you connect to the source of everything. The Womanist Empowerment Series rest on the field. Put Your Finger of the Pulse and Feel the Beat, The Rhythm of Life.
At Home in Nature
A retreat into the vast inner realm of life.
There you’ll find an ocean of possibilities.
An acre of Greenland stretching out in front of you.
In the air a breeze of jasmine.
Sounds prick your earlobes with a sweet lullaby.
You go in a little deeper.
As if passing through the doorway cleanses your heart.
To its’ purest form.
You are like a baby,
Alive to everything around you.
A calm settles over you
Like a warm and soft blanket.
That blocks out the darkness
That you have carried for a lifetime.
Such a sweet release.
Your body a little lighter.
Each step a careful maneuver
Onto the soft wet grass.
Small strands tickle your toes.
You are at Home.
A slight wink from the sun
Opens your heart.
Filling you completely.
Joy seep out of your pores
As a profuse sweat.
Light surrounds you
You are loved and protected
In the arms of Mother Nature.
Mindfulness as a form of Self-Therapy
I’ve been on a quest since Junior College trying to find answers to life. As if a young women would go against the norms and question the very meaning of her being . A philosophical question was posed. What if there was no God? This went against everything I had been taught. My father, a Methodist Minister was who I admired. All we four siblings ever knew were the teachings of the Bible.
All that was about to change when at twenty-one I would have it my way. I put on the back burner everything I was taught, including the teachings of the Bible. Furthermore it never made any sense to me. This began my questioning of the rules made by the ruling class. I looked under rocks, swam across the vast ocean, stood on a cliff and jumped, knowing there was a bottom, but not knowing when I would land.
I was running on automatic pilot. As if there was a being inside of me pushing all the buttons, kicking down the door, running at high speed. From the outside I looked like junkie looking for the next fix, an addiction that would never be filled, trying to feed a hunger, not giving my life what it truly desired, feeling like there was this big question and I had to find the answers.
I would never stop hitting a brick wall. When I did, I would retrace my steps, make a slight detour and move on. Not standing still for too long. Knowing very well water become polluted if it is not flowing. I was like a sailor taking on the challenge to cross the vast ocean to get to the other side. Not knowing where I would land. The sheer excitement of the voyage was what I was after. I found that and more, such has been the essence of my life.
Always wanting to be accepted, but never did I find the refuge in the heart of the other. In the past this troubled me. I would implode and make the same choice. Knowledge is what I devoured trying to find myself. I have come to the conclusion that I had better love and accept myself. Love whom I have become, appreciate the decisions I made, glance over my shoulders and move on.
I have been a tiny spark that grew into a mighty flame, burning a pathway to happiness. A passion inside of me for answers to the meaning of my life. I am worthy I accept this as fact.
Journey into Mindfulness
Mindfully walk and connect to the Earth.
Feel the solid ground beneath your feet.
Imagine an anchor rooted with trees.
Holding you firmly to the ground.
Raise your hands above your head.
Reach for the sky.
Feel the connection from Earth to Heaven.
You have just grounded yourself.
Your footsteps are left in the sand.
Turn around see where you have been.
Shake the dust off your heels.
The next step you take will be light and airy.
You now walk with a gentle gait.
Touching the earth ever so gently.
You once again glance over your shoulders.
There are no footprints in the sand.
Your body floats above the ground.
Moving you to higher places.
Left on the ground is your past.
Which begins to shatter and break apart.
The heavy burden that you used to carry.
Now lay on the ground nourishing those who follow your footpath.
You are a part of the earth.
As you live the garden on Earth will flourish and thrive.
In Poetry and Prose
Journey into Mindfulness A Different Perspective of Fear!
Fear, the immobilizer
Grips the Mind.
Floods the senses with panic.
Your heart races,
All manners of harm.
You have lost all control.
With an ancestry DNA
Feel the fear
Of long ago.
Which has been passed down
Through your genes.
Like a monkey
Trapped in a corner
He senses danger
Lion is out on the prowl..
Mindfully looking at fear
With a different perspective
Brings a mindful response.
There is nothing good or bad
Makes is so…
Journey Into Mindfulness
A Daily Practice
In Poetry and Prose
Let go of the stress
Live in the moment.
Bring your awareness
To the sounds.
Focus on the hear and now.
Rather pain or pleasure
Go into the now.
Bring a loving awareness,
Do not run away
Like staring into the clouds.
Observe from a distance
See, hear, feel.
Awash in your senses
Makes you truly alive.
As the storm subside.
Make sense of what you’ve experienced,
With clarity and wisdom.
Learn to live in the pain
Rather that focus
On it all of the time.
Transform Family Karma Through the Spoken Word
Unconditional Love is what I searched for.
Conditional Love is what I received..
Happinesses is tied to self-worth and acceptance.
Which eluded me most of my life.
I traveled the world.
Looking for Love.
Saw how family dynamics
Did a 360,
Ended up at the same place.
But with a different mind-set.
Understood the pain
In my heart,
Took pen to paper
Healed With the
Created a New Reality
Me just as I am.
Transmute the “Source of Suffering”.
Like a shadow,
Everywhere I go
There it is.
I wake in the morning
To the sunrise,
Lay in Bed for a moment.
There it is.
A nagging sensation,
Not sure what it is.
Until it reveals.
A family discord,
Is where most evil live.
Grows up besides you.
Lives in the same home.
No where to run.
It follows you home.
For a moment
I think it has been satisfied.
Like a hungry ghost,
It can never be.
Until it destroys every thing.
In the quiet of day.
My heart opened.
Poured out the hurt
I let bleed.
So it can be healed.
I looked at the source of my anger.
It was hurt that I could not show.
So it hid behind negativity.
There it could live.
No, I wanted to change this feeling that had been revealed.
What was this struggle
That I was engaged in?
I’ve been here many times before.
I can change this.
I can meet pain
Look at it
The hold it has over me and my happiness.
Like looking in a mirror .
My brother showed me what I could not see.
Anger, hatred and negativity.
Was the force controlling my happiness
If I wanted to be happy
I had to let it be.
I Looked honestly at the situation
That Revealed to me
How I hated those who abused their power,
And saw the suffering that it caused.
A old wounds began to bleed once again.
Today I looked at hatred, anger and fear
and let it not deter me from my happiness.
Seeing clearly what is in front on me,
How those most close can bring clarity, honesty and freedom
Then negative emotions can be released.
Negativity, Hatred and Fear.
no longer have Control over me.