Mindfulness Master

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The other night while driving home from Sea World, with my daughter in the passenger seat and four grands in the back a feeling overcame me and wanted to drag me under.

It was like swimming on the surface of the ocean as wave upon wave tossed and pulled me under. I allowed the wave to smash into me and felt the full power and grasped for a quick breath.

But first, back to the reason I was driving at night. I didn’t sleep well and I even wanted to stay in bed. But it was Camden and Grey’s Sixth birthday celebration. So I agreed

With coffee in my system and a warm shower on my face, I changed my frame of mind and looked forward to the day.

My daughter drove. Even though I am a morning person and would have preferred to drive first. The drive home was decided for me.

As I walked into my daughters bedroom a few hours before we were to leave Cailin replied. “Let Mumsil drive. “ Keshia in a matter of fact stated, I’ll drive in the morning, Mother will drive us home.

Sea World was a wonderful experience. I felt like a little girl as Rylie, Cailin and myself rode the coasters and screamed our heads off.

After a day long adventure I got behind the driver seat and began to drive home.

As I merged onto the ramp darkness began to  surround me. I looked at the oncoming bright lights and started to shiver.

Anxiety gripped my mind. Suddenly I did not think  I could navigate successful on the highway. I thought I would crash.

Irrational thoughts flooded my mind. I’m not sure where they came from. I’ve driven a car on the highways at night many times before.

I grabbed the steering wheel, sat up straight and looked over at my daughter. Just ten minutes earlier she asked if I was ok.

Feeling a little shaky, but told her everything was ok. Not wanting her to assume the heavy burden of driving to and from Sea World.

I finally relented and told her of the feelings that were vying for control.

I pulled off the freeway and turned the wheel over to her. My mind began to process the swirling feelings that had spun out of control.

There were many challenges facing me. I felt most of them were out of my control. No longer feeling the pressure of driving I started to talk. This was a sweet release. I emptied my belly of the stress. After that, we rode home in silence.

Sleeping late the next day, I had a full day to rest. The house was quiet. A dark moment to mediate. I realize that the constant emotion of anxiety had resurfaced.

When I feel I have no control over the situations in my life anxiety raises its head. The difference now I can process the feelings, see the truth of the situation, realize what I can control and let go of expectations, be at peace and release the feeling, like looking at a friend walk away, waving till she’s out of sight.

That powerful sentiment I received yesterday. A gift from the universe that was bestowed upon me. I graciously accepted and released the emotion not calling it my own.

Mindfulness Meditation

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No Longer a Prisoner of Thought

As I stepped outside of my thoughts, I saw them as the thoughts of my culture, my father, my mother, those who lived in my immediate vicinity.

I started to cling less and less to the persona that I called my personality. With insight, i was free to be. I could understand my life and which way I need to go.

Mindfulness Meditation and quiet contemplation moved me to the next evolutionary shift that we humans must make.

It is the one thing that will push Humanity forward from this stuck-on maintaining the status quo.

I turned around and look directly at my life and saw that I could transform myself and meet the challenge before me. It has been my mission to transform education ever since I entered the arena in 1992.

After leaving my fulltime job as an educator in 2001, I  began to see the slow decline in Democracy that we see on a national level.

This loss of purpose is directly related to the decline of the educational function of schools as a vehicle to transform the life of the child.

Day 14 Mindfulness Journal

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May 27, 2019
Day 14
Mindfulness Journal

We’re here to transform the land.
From a waste land into the Buddha Land.

We’re here to fulfill a purpose.
A lifetime pursuit
To uncover
The diamond under the hard outer shell
We show to the world.

We’re here.
In time and space
To express the magnificent
Human potential.

People have discovered
A way to split the atom.
Build a powerful bomb.

It is within the inner recesses of life,
Where tremendous power reside.

Within the inner core.
Is a powerful force.
Invisible to the naked eye
That make it possible
For marvelous things.

When tapped into
Releases a power
That shape the mountains.
Fill the oceans.

Out in the middle of the sea.
A powerful vortex
Begins to spin.

Makes its way to land.
Devours anything in its path.

Within the inner recesses of life.
The fiery middle.

Like a volcano
Churns underneath the ground.

When the time is right
It blows.

A powerful thrust.
Hot lava is released.
Travels down the side and covers the land.

When you tap into the source,
“Put your finger on the pulse, feel the Rhythm of life”
You can experience this power of life.

Its not just for the super rich or movie star.
Athletes we pay money to see.

We cannot walk in their footpath.
We must make our own.

When you look up to someone,
Worship their experience.
You give up a big part of yourself.

You become powerless
To enact a memorable life.

At this time.
The ones who have the power,
Are abusing the right you gave up.

They are hell bent on
Nothing else but exploitation
The earths resources
Including
The Human Being.
You must become your own
Super Star.

Day 13 Mindfulness Journal

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May 25, 2019
Day 13
Mindfulness Journal

Higher Ground

We are the protagonist
Writing the “Story of our Lives.”
With blood as the ink.
We fill the page with
Sweat and tears,
Carving a path
As we move across the surface of the Earth.

Seeing the footprint left by others,
We keep a watchful eye!
But proceeding along
An authentic experience.

With firm conviction
And a lofty goal,
Step gently on the ground.

Often the way seems uncertain.
But with an internal guide
Who has an expanded vision,
Gently step onto the path
Meant for self.

Not what mother or fathers wants for you
Nor the social position
Society expects of you.

Blaze a fiery path
That burns through
Obstacles in your path.

Neither turning around
Or going back,
Those footprints have long been covered over.

You move over the horizon.
To the top of the mountain.
Seeing clearly as you coast downhill.

Be prepared to scale
Mountain upon mountain
As life always moves towards…
Higher Ground.

Day 12 Mindfulness Journal

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May 24, 2019
Mindfulness Journal
Day 12

Transformation

I live from my Highest Self
At home in the Buddha land
Each and Everyone
Has Awakened to their
Eternal “State of Being”,

I am alive in my own skin,
At Peace.

A light into the world,
Illuminating all the “Dark Matter”,
As it folds into it Self
And birth a “New Star”…

Transforming the negative
Into a positive force
That moves across the surface of the earth
Carving a Pathway to the Sun.

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Day 10 Mindfulness Journal

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Day 10
May 22, 2019
Mindfulness Journal

A Transformed Reality!

The decision has been made.
The wheels are turning
Moving forward towards my destination.

Inner light is the guide.

At a high rate of speed,
I grab a hold of my seatbelt
As the wind blow hair across my face.
Blinding me for a moment.

Until familiar landmarks appear.

A gentle nudge from an old friend,
Deepens my connection to what’s real.

A light squeeze from my aunt,
Turns my heart to butter,
As I settle into the day.

A moment to reflect,
Put things in perspective.
Over fifty years on the surface of the earth.

Close my eyes,
See a different reality.

The road traveled has been my Life!!!

Day 6 Mindfulness Journal

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Day 6
Mindfulness Journal
At Home in Nature

A retreat into the vast inner realm of life.
There you’ll find an ocean of possibilities.
An acre of Greenland stretching out in front of you.

In the air a breeze of jasmine.
Sounds prick your earlobes with a sweet lullaby.

You go in a little deeper.
As if passing through the doorway cleanses your heart.

To its’ purest form.
You are like a baby,
Alive to everything around you.

A calm settles over you
Like a warm and soft blanket.
That blocks out the darkness
That you have carried for a lifetime.

Such a sweet release.

Your body a little lighter.
Each step a careful maneuver
Onto the soft wet grass.
Small strands tickle your toes.

You are at Home.
A slight wink from the sun
Opens your heart.

Filling you completely.
Joy seep out of your pores
As a profuse sweat.

Light surrounds you
You are loved and protected
In the arms of Mother Nature.

Day 5 Mindfulness Journal

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Day 5
Mindfulness Journal
Mindfulness as a form of Self-Therapy

I’ve been on a quest since Junior College trying to find answers to life. As if a young women would go against the norms and question the very meaning of her being . A philosophical question was posed. What if there was no God? This went against everything I had been taught. My father, a Methodist Minister was who I admired. All we four siblings ever knew were the teachings of the Bible.

All that was about to change when at twenty-one I would have it my way. I put on the back burner everything I was taught, including the teachings of the Bible. Furthermore it never made any sense to me. This began my questioning of the rules made by the ruling class. I looked under rocks, swam across the vast ocean, stood on a cliff and jumped, knowing there was a bottom, but not knowing when I would land.

I was running on automatic pilot. As if there was a being inside of me pushing all the buttons, kicking down the door, running at high speed. From the outside I looked like junkie looking for the next fix, an addiction that would never be filled, trying to feed a hunger, not giving my life what it truly desired, feeling like there was this big question and I had to find the answers.

I would never stop hitting a brick wall. When I did, I would retrace my steps, make a slight detour and move on. Not standing still for too long. Knowing very well water become polluted if it is not flowing. I was like a sailor taking on the challenge to cross the vast ocean to get to the other side. Not knowing where I would land. The sheer excitement of the voyage was what I was after. I found that and more, such has been the essence of my life.

Always wanting to be accepted, but never did I find the refuge in the heart of the other. In the past this troubled me. I would implode and make the same choice. Knowledge is what I devoured trying to find myself. I have come to the conclusion that I had better love and accept myself. Love whom I have become, appreciate the decisions I made, glance over my shoulders and move on.

I have been a tiny spark that grew into a mighty flame, burning a pathway to happiness. A passion inside of me for answers to the meaning of my life. I am worthy I accept this as fact.

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Day 4 Mindfulness Journal

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Day 4
Journey into Mindfulness
Forest Bathing

Mindfully walk and connect to the Earth.
Feel the solid ground beneath your feet.

Imagine an anchor rooted with trees.
Holding you firmly to the ground.

Raise your hands above your head.
Reach for the sky.

Feel the connection from Earth to Heaven.
You have just grounded yourself.

Your footsteps are left in the sand.
Turn around see where you have been.

Shake the dust off your heels.
The next step you take will be light and airy.

You now walk with a gentle gait.
Touching the earth ever so gently.

You once again glance over your shoulders.
There are no footprints in the sand.

Your body floats above the ground.
Moving you to higher places.

Left on the ground is your past.
Which begins to shatter and break apart.

The heavy burden that you used to carry.
Now lay on the ground nourishing those who follow your footpath.

You are a part of the earth.
As you live the garden on Earth will flourish and thrive.

Day 2 Mindfulness Journal

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Day 2
Journey into Mindfulness                                                                                                           A Different Perspective of Fear!

Fear, the immobilizer
Grips the Mind.
Floods the senses with panic.

Your heart races,
The Mind
Imagines
All manners of harm.

You have lost all control.

We humans
With an ancestry DNA
Feel the fear
Of long ago.

Which has been passed down
Through your genes.

Like a monkey
Trapped in a corner
He senses danger
When the
Lion is out on the prowl..

Mindfully looking at fear
With a different perspective
Brings a mindful response.

There is nothing good or bad
But thinking
Makes is so…